Good morning, everyone. Daily post! 

Day #3

Day #4

Have a great Shabbos!

Hello, all. Stressful weekend. Thankfully, eyes are still clean.

Day eight of clean eyes. 
Day #0 

Good morning, all. In the last week, I have made two new connections with GYE folks offline. That is good.

Nine days of clean eyes!
Day #1

Good morning, רבותי.

Feeling grateful for GYE this morning. For many years including all bein hazmanim and the entirety of my kollel tenure, I felt so alone and ashamed. I've had more successful periods since joining GYE than I am having now, but I don't have those feelings of despair and loneliness with the struggle.

10 days of clean eyes!
Day #2

11 days of clean eyes!
Day #3

Offline communications with GYE chaverim has been very helpful.

14 days of clean eyes.
Day #6

Good morning, מורי ורבותי.

I want to share what I think has been an important principle in my journey. It is helpful to focus on what positive actions can be done to contribute towards a clean day as opposed to simply focusing on refraining from behaviors and triggers.

This is what I have already done or plan on doing today:

• Daven to Hashem for help.
• Reach out to GYE connections through this forum and offline, both proactively and if I have an urge
• Use my personal computer for non-work related tasks.

15 days of clean eyes.
Day #7

Hey there שבע, it’s been awhile…

I love your new thread (haven’t gone through all of it yet). I also really like the fact that you keep two different counts, it’s something that I think would really help me as well, being that porn is usually easier to avoid then masturbation.

Thank you for the inspiration, wishing you much success and looking forward to seeing it materialize!

Best wishes,
OivedElokim

oivedelokim wrote on 04 Jun 2024 16:15:

@HHM gets the assist for that. Good to see you back on the forum.

Good morning, all.

16 days of clean eyes
Day #8

Good morning, all.

I had an 'M' fall last night. It was very late. I didn't have a phone or computer with me and didn't have the motivation to go get them and reach out as I was trying to go to sleep. Not sure what to put in place to avoid this in the future. Thankfully, eyes are clean.

17 days of clean eyes.

שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 06 Jun 2024 12:50:

Good morning צדיק. That is great that you have 17days of clean eyes. Keep it up!

When I worked on this, it helped me to have a 'no touching' rule (besides for X number of seconds for hygiene). I'd justify a little, which usually turned into the whole deal. Instead of wrestling with a beast, my focus is on not unlocking the cage - which for me was much easier to habituate. Maybe this mindset could help you too. Hatzlacha.

Update:
I have already set an alarm on my watch to go off every night except Friday at 10:45PM. I am mekabel, bli neder, that if I'm not already asleep, I will reach out to some GYE contacts who I communicate with offline. This will have several benefits. It will add some extra accountability. It will be a pause for me to think about what I am doing with my night and how I will successfully end it without 'P' and/or 'M'. 

אַ גוטן חודש

18 days of clean eyes
Day #1