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Re: Connecting the days 30 Oct 2023 19:29 #402997

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ainshumyeiush wrote on 30 Oct 2023 18:12:

How many times did David goggins fail at beating the chin up record? But every time after a failed attempt he would go thru the whole process and see what went wrong. Dont think that nothing mattered. Its still a huge accomplishment that you where able to fight for so long. Its hard to stay focused for too long tho, so plan out now before you get caught up in the moment what you can do.

I'm not sure what exactly you're saying here, but I'm getting positive vibes so I'll accept it!
Love you too, bro.

We get only one chance at life.
This is not a rehearsal; it's the real thing.

Father, help me live sober Today.

Re: Connecting the days 30 Oct 2023 20:40 #402998

ainshumyeiush Current streak: 2 days OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 311 Karma: 26	Sorry i thought you meant you had a fall when you mentioned a slow and steady decline until you went to sleep. Awkward. Moving on.
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Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 01:23 #403012

chaimoigen Current streak: 577 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1386 Karma: 137	Not to hijack your thread, but today for me been a sweeping panorama of grey blahness that makes brilig and the slithy toves look happy. I contemplated doing stupid things but don't want to. Blah. I am a toad. Can I join you on that lily pod in the swamp for a few, mate? The icky drizzle's dripping down my neck.
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Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 02:28 #403014

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chaimoigen wrote on 31 Oct 2023 01:23:

Not to hijack your thread, but today for me been a sweeping panorama of grey blahness that makes brilig and the slithy toves look happy.
I contemplated doing stupid things but don't want to.
Blah. I am a toad.
Can I join you on that lily pod in the swamp for a few, mate? The icky drizzle's dripping down my neck.

Im Sorry to hear that .
The lily pod is a mere illusion of support - The real support is here.

May you slide down the banister of happiness and get many splinters of success up your career

Feel free to send me an owl, a howler, or even a Crumple-Horned Snorkack to Iamredfaced@gmail.com

The Red Face

Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 14:49 #403026

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redfaced wrote on 31 Oct 2023 02:28:

chaimoigen wrote on 31 Oct 2023 01:23:

Im Sorry to hear that .
The lily pod is a mere illusion of support - The real support is here.

Hey, chaimoigen, don't believe everything you read on the internet. The lily pod is very real, at least as real as the swamp itself.
And yes, you are welcome to join me whenever you feel the need (assuming I'm in the mood for company).

We get only one chance at life.
This is not a rehearsal; it's the real thing.

Father, help me live sober Today.

Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 17:47 #403043

DeletedUser1281 OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 448 Karma: 35	Before I indulge, can anyone remind me why I didn't till now?
	We get only one chance at life. This is not a rehearsal; it's the real thing. Father, help me live sober Today.

Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 17:58 #403044

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Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 19:02 #403051

DeletedUser1281 OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 448 Karma: 35	Trouble wrote on 31 Oct 2023 17:58: sorry, i've been incognito, but as you can see here from my votes in the minority (fourth column, bottom country), i've been busy...... I've been toying with the idea of doing some incognito stuff myself.
	We get only one chance at life. This is not a rehearsal; it's the real thing. Father, help me live sober Today.

Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 19:37 #403052

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connected wrote on 31 Oct 2023 19:02:

Trouble wrote on 31 Oct 2023 17:58:

sorry, i've been incognito, but as you can see here from my votes in the minority (fourth column, bottom country), i've been busy......

I've been toying with the idea of doing some incognito stuff myself.

Dear Connected,
Like Zeidy Biden said recently "If you are thiinking about it, I have one word and one word only, DONT, DONT, DONT.
Reason 1. You are a yid! and you have a very holy Nefesh, Ruach, Neshama and they are begging you not to hurt them!
Reason 2. You will sometimes in the future need to correct everything you do now, its such a waste to fix things that couldve been avoided in the first place.
Reason 3. We all love you and dont want you in pain after you give in for even a sec.
Reason 4. Just because the YH wants you to, (enter swear and curse words here)********************

I can go on forever.

Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 19:38 #403053

chancy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 527 Karma: 22	Trouble wrote on 31 Oct 2023 17:58: sorry, i've been incognito, but as you can see here from my votes in the minority (fourth column, bottom country), i've been busy...... Are you the minority whip?

Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 20:25 #403057

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chancy wrote on 31 Oct 2023 19:37:

Reason 1. You are a yid! and you have a very holy Nefesh, Ruach, Neshama and they are begging you not to hurt them!

I also have a body, and it's begging for attention.

Reason 2. You will sometimes in the future need to correct everything you do now, its such a waste to fix things that couldve been avoided in the first place.

Any idea when and what that might be? Because what I feel like doing is very clear and specific.

Reason 3. We all love you and dont want you in pain after you give in for even a sec.

I guess you'd rather me be in perpetual pain from not giving in. Besides, after giving in, I usually don't feel much pain, it's just good.

Reason 4. Just because the YH wants you to, (enter swear and curse words here)********************

I'm not sure I understand what's going on here.

I can go on forever.

Go for it!

We get only one chance at life.
This is not a rehearsal; it's the real thing.

Father, help me live sober Today.

Re: Connecting the days 31 Oct 2023 22:40 #403073

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connected wrote on 31 Oct 2023 17:47:

Before I indulge, can anyone remind me why I didn't till now?

Brother, you sound to me a little bit like G-d when He said:
ועתה הניחה לי.....
I don't know that I could give an answer to your question.
But I notice that you seem to feel like asking this question. To me, that seems somewhat significant.

So maybe it might be prudent to wait until tomorrow to see if there’s an answer waiting there…

Please feel free to reach out anytime at chaim.oigen@gmail.com

Last Edit: 01 Nov 2023 00:44 by chaimoigen.

Re: Connecting the days 01 Nov 2023 16:52 #403110

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Checking in for the sake of checking it.
On this day, I'm BH feeling a lot better than its predecessor.

Yesterday, whilst riding that terrible cloud, Trouble made a surprise appearance on my thread, and I remembered a line he said on a call of his some months ago.
It goes something like this:
"I have people say, 'I wanna act out!' so I say, 'Okay, I hear you. That's okay.' So they ask me, 'What "okay"? Are you saying that I should?' and I answer, 'I didn't say that. All I'm saying is that it's okay to want to act out. Wanting something doesn't mean that you need to do it.'"
Something along these lines.
Thanks, Trouble for the call, and thanks for gracing my thread.

Remembering the call reminded me of Lchaim Tovim, who used to be a call guy and hasn't been around here for a while, so I tried waking him up. Let's see what happens.

We get only one chance at life.
This is not a rehearsal; it's the real thing.

Father, help me live sober Today.

Re: Connecting the days 02 Nov 2023 14:00 #403160

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connected wrote on 31 Oct 2023 20:25:

chancy wrote on 31 Oct 2023 19:37:

Reason 1. You are a yid! and you have a very holy Nefesh, Ruach, Neshama and they are begging you not to hurt them!

I also have a body, and it's begging for attention.
SO EAT! Thats a much better desire to occupy the body than this.

Reason 2. You will sometimes in the future need to correct everything you do now, its such a waste to fix things that couldve been avoided in the first place.

Any idea when and what that might be? Because what I feel like doing is very clear and specific.
As soon as you fall, you will be responsible for fixing it, its just so much work, even if you wont realize that you are carrying that burden, you still are.

Reason 3. We all love you and dont want you in pain after you give in for even a sec.

I guess you'd rather me be in perpetual pain from not giving in. Besides, after giving in, I usually don't feel much pain, it's just good.
No, I dont want you in pain at all. You obviously dont want to do this, otherwise you wouldnt be here. SO there must be some pain that you dont want.

Reason 4. Just because the YH wants you to, (enter swear and curse words here)********************

I'm not sure I understand what's going on here.
Just to win the YH is enough thrill

I can go on forever.

Go for it!

I AM!

Last Edit: 02 Nov 2023 14:01 by chancy.

Re: Connecting the days 06 Nov 2023 17:21 #403314

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Hello porn my old friend,
I've come to dance with you again.
Because a fantasy slowly creeping
Planted its seeds while I was figuratively sleeping

This Motzei Shabbos, I masturbated to porn.
Sunday morning, when I woke up, I did it again.
And again, about 10 am.

And of course, along with it came an awesome ego trip.
My old apathy resurfaced. I see now that I was never really apathetic; I was just playing the part to protect myself from the pain of failure. I played it well, so well that I fooled myself.

Even now, I instinctively want to write that I don't really care, it is what it is, ODAAT, life goes on - all of which might be true. But at the same time, I don't think it would be in line with how I'm really feeling - if I dared allow myself to feel.

And I bowed and prayed
To the ego god I made
And the god was clear with its warning
Make sure you never allow me to undergo a deforming

We get only one chance at life.
This is not a rehearsal; it's the real thing.

Father, help me live sober Today.