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Re: My new life 10 Jun 2022 23:57 #381780

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Boruch hashem clean for today. Have a good shabbos.
יאוש - בכלל ה"ז היפך אמונתנו ותורתנו הנקראת תורת אמת - ז.א. המתארת המציאות לאמתתה, שהקב"ה משגיח על כאו"א בגו"ר ועוזרו וכו'.
הצינור והכלי לקבלת עזר לברכות השם - ה"ז הנהגה מתאימה לרצון השם, היינו ע"פ שו"ע.

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Re: My new life 12 Jun 2022 23:26 #381861

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Shabbos was nice, clean boruch hashem. So far clean today as well, but I'll be out late tonight so I need to make sure not to fall when I get back
יאוש - בכלל ה"ז היפך אמונתנו ותורתנו הנקראת תורת אמת - ז.א. המתארת המציאות לאמתתה, שהקב"ה משגיח על כאו"א בגו"ר ועוזרו וכו'.
הצינור והכלי לקבלת עזר לברכות השם - ה"ז הנהגה מתאימה לרצון השם, היינו ע"פ שו"ע.

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Re: My new life 13 Jun 2022 08:38 #381888

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So I made it back home about a half hour ago, and that's it - I'm not going to fall tonight. A month ago I had the same exact situation for the same exact reason and I did fall, so yay to me! Onward to today!
יאוש - בכלל ה"ז היפך אמונתנו ותורתנו הנקראת תורת אמת - ז.א. המתארת המציאות לאמתתה, שהקב"ה משגיח על כאו"א בגו"ר ועוזרו וכו'.
הצינור והכלי לקבלת עזר לברכות השם - ה"ז הנהגה מתאימה לרצון השם, היינו ע"פ שו"ע.

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Re: My new life 14 Jun 2022 05:01 #381930

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Clean day boruch hashem, I was by a bris today of a close friend's son.

Interesting thought: I used to feel that if I don't have anything specific to write here then there's טאקע no point. I still feel a bit weird just posting "clean day" and that's it. But for the last 3+ weeks I posted almost every day. Something is working, not sure what.
יאוש - בכלל ה"ז היפך אמונתנו ותורתנו הנקראת תורת אמת - ז.א. המתארת המציאות לאמתתה, שהקב"ה משגיח על כאו"א בגו"ר ועוזרו וכו'.
הצינור והכלי לקבלת עזר לברכות השם - ה"ז הנהגה מתאימה לרצון השם, היינו ע"פ שו"ע.

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Re: My new life 14 Jun 2022 11:28 #381934

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Human nature is to veer towards negativity. It takes extra effort to post "plain" good news. There is a "special yetzer hara" that tries to convince us not to make a siyum when we finish a mesechta. "You don't really know every blatt. You probably skipped a few Rashi's, etc." Same story here. This yetzer hara does not want us to feel good about ourselves or celebrate. He doesn't want us to document our successes because he knows it will iyh bring to more....
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My threads: Lessons Learned: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/335248-Lessons-Learned

                    My Story and G-d Bless GYE: guardyoureyes.com/forum/17-Balei-Battims-Forum/303036-My-story-and-G-d-bless-GYE

Re: My new life 14 Jun 2022 15:54 #381939

To add on to the above, your success gives us inspiration and chizzuk, there is definitely nothing normal about success in this area. Keep posting!

Re: My new life 15 Jun 2022 04:52 #381967

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Clean day boruch hashem. Thanks for the encouragement.

Is it just me, or is the flight to freedom website not working right now? It's the second time it's happening to me in the past week.
יאוש - בכלל ה"ז היפך אמונתנו ותורתנו הנקראת תורת אמת - ז.א. המתארת המציאות לאמתתה, שהקב"ה משגיח על כאו"א בגו"ר ועוזרו וכו'.
הצינור והכלי לקבלת עזר לברכות השם - ה"ז הנהגה מתאימה לרצון השם, היינו ע"פ שו"ע.

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Last Edit: 15 Jun 2022 04:54 by bochur23.

Re: My new life 15 Jun 2022 10:43 #381970

The F2F site had a bug, it's working again now.
There's Life Beyond Addiction

Re: My new life 16 Jun 2022 03:33 #382012

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So late last night I ended up falling... But today was clean!

It's been a month since I restarted, so here are my takeaways: out of 30 days, I was clean for 23. I fell on 7 days, one of them was a double fall on one day. I would estimate that I watched less than 2 hours of porn during this month.

My plan to improve over the coming month is that I'm going to focus more on the flight to freedom program (I've been avoiding answering the questions at the point where I'm up to, but I need to do it), including making a more detailed "official" plan. I'm also going to ask my friend to be my accountability partner again (he did it earlier this year with me).

@MenachemGYE: it's not working again...
יאוש - בכלל ה"ז היפך אמונתנו ותורתנו הנקראת תורת אמת - ז.א. המתארת המציאות לאמתתה, שהקב"ה משגיח על כאו"א בגו"ר ועוזרו וכו'.
הצינור והכלי לקבלת עזר לברכות השם - ה"ז הנהגה מתאימה לרצון השם, היינו ע"פ שו"ע.

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Re: My new life 16 Jun 2022 08:26 #382017

It's back up - again. The programmers are working to make it more stable.
By the way here's a new simplified list of questions.

Here's some other good stuff from the next version of F2F that can help you with planning:
Flight Plan
Freedom Contract
There's Life Beyond Addiction
Last Edit: 16 Jun 2022 09:19 by menachemgye.

Re: My new life 17 Jun 2022 06:16 #382068

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Good day, boruch hashem clean! A lot going on over the next couple of days, so I'll be pretty busy, which should (hopefully) keep me out of trouble IYH.

@MenachemGYE: thanks for the links, very helpful! Now it'll be easier for me to get through the reasons for change unit .
יאוש - בכלל ה"ז היפך אמונתנו ותורתנו הנקראת תורת אמת - ז.א. המתארת המציאות לאמתתה, שהקב"ה משגיח על כאו"א בגו"ר ועוזרו וכו'.
הצינור והכלי לקבלת עזר לברכות השם - ה"ז הנהגה מתאימה לרצון השם, היינו ע"פ שו"ע.

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Re: My new life 19 Jun 2022 18:28 #382128

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Still going clean, boruch hashem. Friday and Shabbos were both very busy, coming days will also be IYH.
יאוש - בכלל ה"ז היפך אמונתנו ותורתנו הנקראת תורת אמת - ז.א. המתארת המציאות לאמתתה, שהקב"ה משגיח על כאו"א בגו"ר ועוזרו וכו'.
הצינור והכלי לקבלת עזר לברכות השם - ה"ז הנהגה מתאימה לרצון השם, היינו ע"פ שו"ע.

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Re: My new life 20 Jun 2022 07:13 #382161

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Thank you Hashem for just saving me from messing up! I was up alone by the computer and about to watch porn, when someone walked in...

Call it whatever you want. I totally wouldn't have stayed clean without that happening, and I didn't stop myself, so it's probably at least a slip. But I don't think it'll be beneficial to reset my count.

I was supposed to have an important test today, but I didn't feel ready to take it and I was able to postpone for later. I couldn't afford not passing, which is what led to me messing up a one month clean streak at the beginning of this year. But I was still disappointed with myself and was a little down today (which probably led to the above situation).
יאוש - בכלל ה"ז היפך אמונתנו ותורתנו הנקראת תורת אמת - ז.א. המתארת המציאות לאמתתה, שהקב"ה משגיח על כאו"א בגו"ר ועוזרו וכו'.
הצינור והכלי לקבלת עזר לברכות השם - ה"ז הנהגה מתאימה לרצון השם, היינו ע"פ שו"ע.

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Re: My new life 21 Jun 2022 01:09 #382190

Bh someone walked in, for sure dont reset your count since you didn't actually fall
Joined as a single bochur, Bh broke free (but still on watch) by using the tools on this website, therapy but mainly through getting married. 

הנותן עיניו במה שאינו שלו, מה שמבקש לא נותנים לו, ומה שבידו נוטלים ממנה

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Re: My new life 21 Jun 2022 04:38 #382198

It's a very tough tactic of the yetzer hara to get us to poke a hole in the areas of life where we are succeeding in just because we feel down about an area we are struggling in. Your studies are important, but just because you are struggling in that specific area right now does not mean you aren't a successful person. Society at large places larger value on external metrics of success and as a result it is easy to undervalue internal success and spiritual endeavors. Don't overlook the huge effort you are making in avodas Hashem. Let that be an anchor for you and a base of self-esteem to help weather the exams storm. Davening for your success on your exams!
Last Edit: 21 Jun 2022 04:39 by committed_togrowth.
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