Holy Yidden, this is my first time posting in this Wall of Honor forum category. After nearly eight months of being clean (refraining from being motzi zera while awake), I fell on 10 Cheshvan. I still can't believe I did that considering how hard I worked all those months beforehand. Not to absolve my actions, but it's like I was overcome by this crazy force, Mr. Satan. There's no other way to explain it considering how far I came until that point.  I have been clean now since 11 Cheshvan, almost 60 days and I am absolutely, ENTIRELY determined to never commit this serious aveira again yet I still know that I can never get complacent and think I have this thing beat, that's it's all behind me, since I fell after being clean for a lot longer than 60 days before.

Keep living and working at it.  Mazel tov on 60 days!!!!!  I say thinking positive leads to positive things.

Wow what an attitude. With that attitude youll definitly go far. And you picked yourself up the next day? That is wild.. Mazel tov on your 60. May you be zoche to hold it forever ths time.

Hey that's super, superYid!

Have you read the handbooks?

I have been in your situation many times. Does that tell you anything (Besides that I'm a raving pessimist)?
You need to go through the steps that have been set up by those who are 10 YEARS clean!!
Look man, I don't want you to have to go through what I did, so take my advice instead of learning first hand, IT DOESN'T GO AWAY!! YOU CAN ONLY PUSH IT OFF!!
I have been clean for up to a year, and all it took was the right situation and 10 seconds and I fell again.
You need a stronger defense than simply the time behind you!!!
Read the handbook and read it again, then read it a 3rd time. Figure out which steps you'll take, and get an accountability partner. You don't have to do this for life, it's just to shlep you out of the pit. Your standing with your head above the ground so you think your out completely, TRUST ME DUDE, save yourself a lot of anguish and follow through with one of the recovery programs they have here.

Hey super duper yid

I don't yell keep on truckin only when we are driving thru the cornfields of Kansas

Keep ON Trucking!!
We are on the Ice Road up to Alaska!!

K
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In the future, the big book will have Bardys icon on the cover, and the entire book will be reduced to 3 words: KEEP ON TRUCK'N

Kollel Guy wrote on 25 Dec 2009 13:15:
If you would only realize the real meaning of those so precious words you wouldnt be making joke like that! > :D

imtrying25 wrote on 25 Dec 2009 13:33:
I do realize the meaning, and that's why I'm saying it. Who's joking anyway?

YOU ARE SOMEBODY SPECIAL!!!

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