Please READ and VOTE on this new poll I just created over here: rehab-my-site.com/guardureyes/forum/index.php?topic=1427.0

I would really appreciate it, haba. I'll pm my email adress, if you can do it. Thanx momo, it's good to know that we're all so special today! Fast well, gyes!

Keep up the good work!!!  Stay positive and always know you are in the right hands between GYE and G-d!! 

Wow...reading through your thread again, you are truly amazing!

I never cease to be amazed and honored by the people that I get to keep company with!

Thank you!

3am: waking up. EDITED!

Oh, wow...it sounds like you have a bit of a complex family situation, and things have gotten even more interesting with this thrown into them mix!

What made you decide to tell your mother about it?

Dear LoMe,

It mamesh pains me to read of your experience. No one should ever have to go to the airport alone like that, no one should ever have to feel like they are letting down their parents especially when they are fighting so hard to be the type of person their parents want them to be. Trust me, if it were possibly, all of us here on the forum would have loaded up in Bardi truck and would have driven you to the airport, with tupim micholos, tantzing and the good old Woodstein Reserve!

The truth is that in anonymous surveys done by Nefesh the frum mental health organization the percentages of frum people who have fallen to P**n is way over 50%, I've heard some studies that put it in the 80-90% range!

BUT how many of them are here in the trenches fighting valiantly? LoMe, you are not a letdown, you are a warrior!! We salute you, and stand behind you!

Keep on Trukkin!
Haba

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Your story sounds really rough.

Good luck sorting things out!

Yeah, got myself into a real sticky situation!

I suppose i will have to "tachzik chazak aleh katan sheli, ki lo tamid hakol bachutz bahir....titchazek ki ani itcha!"

loi-misyaeish wrote on 01 Jan 2010 08:46:
Heck i was just singing that song to myself

I don't even know that song, but when I read your courageous story, I wanna sing it anyway (I often do that, sing songs I don't know, my kids don't seem to mind....)

LoMe, you are a king amongst men. Your brother, while being well meaning perhaps, is being terrible. For him to tell you that you're causing your father to not learn well is simply WRONG from every perspective. They almost make it sound like you're enjoying this stuff, which your clearly not. They made some big mistakes while raising you, which put you in a world of pain, and now it is time for the family as a whole to heal together instead of pointing fingers....

Just know that waves of unconditional loves radiate from this site to you, our dear LoMe, and thanks for being so strong despite being depressed yesterday, you are a hug chizzuk to all of us!!!

If the family can heal together, that's great!

But sometimes, part of healing is realizing that your family is NOT going to change, and accepting that. Accepting their issues, and the unhealthy things that they do.

In fact, I think you need to separate yourself emotionally from your family a bit, and feel ready able to do your own thing, to grow.