Spoke to a friend tonight about this for the first time. 
Also acted out again

That’s a brave move.
Opening up to someone you know already is very difficult. I’ve only done it once...
Hope you can brush yourself off, rise up again and keep fighting.
Wishing you much success!
OE

Day 1
BH clean

Looking_to_improve wrote on 15 Mar 2021 21:54:

Where these 2 related?

Looking_to_improve wrote on 16 Mar 2021 21:36:

. If you are near by, come by for a l'chaim...

Not quite sure what you mean? Perhaps to a small degree, we did speak a bit about how it's a common and normal struggle, but I don't think that point alone would have justified it for me


Thanks for the offer, but it's not a big achievement for me

Day 2

BH a busy, clean day

Day 3

BH another clean day

Day 5
BH I'm clean
Hope you all had a great shabbos

Amazing!
Keep the momentum going!

Looking_to_improve wrote on 20 Mar 2021 22:42:

Ok! Here we go again, back in a healthy pattern. Please reach out to us as soon as, or even before the going gets rough. You did this already and you definitely can do it again. Yes it's hard, but it's so beautiful. Yes it seems like you are giving up such intense pleasure, but it's a sham. It may feel like you NEED it put it's false. Everything good is hard work, but definitely worth it.

Shape the rest of your life as one of control and discipline. Continue to become the man you are, not a child or a sophisticated animal.
Live with true freedom and love of life and rid yourself of today's world, which doesn't deserve the respect of being called mankind.

Maybe try posting more detailed posts. I don't know why, but when I write or discuss these issues in greater detail, it serves as a bucket of ice water on burning fires.

Hatzlacha! 

I've been feeling a lack of willpower and motivation recently, so haven't been in the mood to write long posts. And when I do, I'm not good at conveying my feelings. Sometimes I try to give a honest recounting of my day, but I'm told I'm being harsh on myself, when I know that's not my intention.
I feel like I have a healthy approach to this struggle, I think there's diminishing returns in what I post at this point. I feel like it's up to me now to carry out what I know.
I struggle to have the frame of mind to reach out when I'm struggling. In the past, like by my last fall, I did reach out, but I started to ignore the guy who I was messaging.
I guess overall, even though I have people I message, I still feel alone in this struggle. I don't really know why I post anymore, as opposed to just updating my daily count

You are not alone in this struggel!! You are an important part of GYE, posting and giving chizuk to other people. We need you!! You have us all. Send me a PM to talk if want.

Your brother who loves you

Feeling an urge to masturbate now. I already had a 30 min chavrusa and dinner since it began, but not much has changed. I'm gonna go for a walk with a friend soon, but I'm alone at the moment until he gets back and we leave.

Please don't do it!!
Seriously we all care for you.