Not in a great mood, and not feeling great either. Could do with an escape

Forced myself to go for to half of night seder, but my brains a bit fried now. Couldn't focus while my chavrusa was reading and was only thinking of one thing...
I'm in for a tough night...

Day 11

BH I think I'm in the clear now. Had to do laundry and some sorting for bein hazmanim. Then I had a very good and constructive conversation with a Rebbe, on something that's been bothering me.

Day 12
BH today was good
Have a great shabbos everyone!

BH shabbos was good.
I'm staying with a friend for a few days, potentially might have unfiltered devices, I'm gonna speak to him to try find a solution.
Also may have just found a loophole with my filter, but I'm not going to check it. If anyone is a techie and knows about Android please let me know, I have general about filters, thanks.

I've just emailed TAG Israel, I'll let you all know when they get back to me

Looking_to_improve wrote on 13 Mar 2021 19:56:

Please feel free to reach out to me by email or PM, I will try to help.

Acted out last night and this morning

Looking_to_improve wrote on 14 Mar 2021 08:43:

Sorry to hear that. As long as you are going to chase your filter, trying to patch up everything possible...which will never happen, I'm afraid you will be running in circles. You are searching for the perfect bandaid...

Grant400 wrote on 14 Mar 2021 14:20:

I know, but it's frustrating because I wasn't looking for a loophole, but ended up finding one anyway. 
I don't know what a healthy balance is, because I can't have access to these things, but I also can't try patch every last thing. What do I do?

Day 0 back here again. Really thought I was gonna go a month clean.
Like Grant said, I feel like I'm going in circles. Feeling disappointed in myself. Felt embarrassed to stand before Hashem during maariv tonight

BH there's no issues with unfiltered devices. But still sorting out my own one. Tag referred me to netspark, who I haven't always found useful. I'm looking into switching to gentech of they can solve the problems I'm having.

Looking_to_improve wrote on 14 Mar 2021 22:26:

try techloq

I highly recommend techloq,although I would refer to R Grant's post as well.

Techloq is for Windows devices only. LTI has an Android

Looking_to_improve wrote on 14 Mar 2021 14:42:

I believe you already know and have known for a while, the answer to that question. Orchestrating ones surroundings to fit his preferences will never work. All one can do is to learn how to live with his surroundings.