I've been struggling with porn for more then a few years. Whenever I thought I could stop, somehow or another I found myself right back at square one.
I really hope with the help of hashem that I can overcome my challenge

I forget the source for what I'm about to say but I remember hearing that if someone sees that he has a challenge in fulfilling a certain mitzvah then he knows it's one of the missions he was brought into the world for and the fact he has this challenge shows he can overcome it. 

It seems like this generation has been given a challenge like no other but the fact we have the challenge means we have the power to overcome it.

For that reason I am sharing my journey and hope I can overcome my own personal challenge and maybe help another.

I don't know how many times I will update my journey but I plan to make it more of a personal diary.
Feel free to comment

Zedj wrote on 18 Oct 2020 06:22:

The Gra says that.
And welcome! You’ve come to the right place and bezras Hashem will succeed!
We are all here for you. Always.

Welcome! May it be with hatzlachah.


Wow I got a lot of missions...

Although I know everyone is different, I found that this line of thinking had an extremely negative effect on my breaking free.
For me, the less the life mission the better, after all you can't just forget about your life's mission that easily.

Whatever works, just sharing what works (or doesn't) for me.

All the best,
Wilnevergiveup

My journey on this forum is gonna be starting from day #7.

I started to get some urges but I hope to overcome them. 

Zedj wrote on 18 Oct 2020 06:37:

Each person has his own opportunity to serve Hashem in his unique situation. We cannot compare people, because we cannot know what someone would do had he been given another’s life-setting and natural temperament. Although people seem to respect outward success, that is not the true measure of greatness. Greatness is accomplishment in the face of great challenge. It is putting in the effort when we are struggling to succeed.

Understanding this causes us to appreciate our incredible opportunity: We can reach the greatest heights by controlling ourselves when challenged with desire. Because it is so difficult to overcome the yetzer hara, defeating him is an incredible achievement!

Welcome. Iyh with loads of hatzlocha!  Statistically the guys who stay connected break free... so looking forward for more posts. What are your triggers?

Day 8

Thank you all for reaching out and showing your support, tips, and encouragement.
It really means alot.

Hashem Help Me wrote on 18 Oct 2020 19:02:


Thank you.
I had not planned to post daily but because of what you said I will try to post as often as possible.

As for triggers, I think it comes down to provocative movie scenes  and/or provocative images

So I try to stay away from these triggers as much as possible

If you remove accessibility to seeing those movies you will be one step ahead of it all...….Maybe it is time to set up serious filters. A little inconvenience = a lot of menuchas hanefesh!

Day 10

Still in the game.

In this weeks Parshah, Hashem tells Noach to build the teiva (ark). 
Just to point out, it took Noach 120 years to build it.
Why did it take so long? 
One of the answers given is because Hashem wanted to give the generation a chance to do teshuva. Not a week not a year but 120!
just thought to share.
Hashem has patience...

now, I don't know what tomorrow or the week brings but I hope that I will continue trudging forward with no falls.

Zedj wrote on 21 Oct 2020 04:40:

My dear friend, you will always, always be in the game. There's absolutely no escaping the game. The question just is: Will you be winning or losing?

                                   Grant 

Zedj wrote on 21 Oct 2020 04:40:

You are amazing!!! And remember, amazing people will make it!

Grant400 wrote on 21 Oct 2020 13:40:

This. And look in the mirror. That's your competition.

Hatzlocha in your journey.

Day 15

By mistake deleted day 14.

So far so good. I guess no bad news is good news.

May you see Tons of Hatzlocho, 15 days of your real self, who YOU really are. Days of Lemaalo miderech hateva,.suppose you have the rights now to daven for nissim Lemaalo miderech hateva. I once davened after overcoming a hard urge for a particular Yeshua and saw a direct answer shortly after.  
Hatzlocho Rabo