I am 4 days clean from masturbation for the first time in several weeks. I did see some very explicit content yesterday though.
I spent record amount of time with my wife this week (we usually have like one night a week together) and would not have strength to fight if not for having her available but I am happy to be at this stage now. I know that it's against the ODAAT policy. 

On the way up

Happy to hear about your streak and the time you spent with your wife. Just make sure to be careful to avoid seeing anything you shouldn't see, because you will regret it later. I say spend as much time with your wife as you can. That way when you're not around her you might want to mess up less because your relationship with her will grow stronger from the time you 2 spend together. It's just an idea, but it can't hurt to try!

Fell again
Got up again 
Clean since Friday b"h

I had a bad slip last night, bad enough to count it as a fall. At least it was over quickly

Fell again yesterday after 3 days

Sometimes its easy to lack motivation to get a long streak because we won't be able to get our pleasure of acting out. Meaning if you have a streak of 0-7 days you might think alright i don't have such a big streak it will only take a few days to get back to where I am. But following that logic you will never reach greatness and break free. Not saying your doing this but theres something thats the problem here because youve been in a bit of a rut. What are you going to do to get out? Why don't you set yourself a flexible goal - 2 week clean streak by the end of may or st similar? (thats one of the ways I personally broke free)

EvedHashem1836 wrote on 03 May 2021 21:40:

Thanks. I will bl"n elaborate with a clearer update sometime this week. 

Got a 6 day streak this week b"h but now I'm back to 0

Fell today on day 6
Hard side the month but getting better in general I think 

R'Starting how are you doing?
Missing you, fellow...

Hows it goin man?

Thank you both for asking
B"h I am feeling more like I'm getting back into it, currently 5 days clean and had 5 days several times recently which is on the way up. 
What I am really devoting much of time and energy to is my work, trying to pay up the bills on time. 
I do think of gye quite a bit though but the thought of trying to put my feeli gs on paper (or on screen) is just too draining. 
I have also not been on the phone for a few weeks but I hope to make a call sometime this week if I can Iy"h. 

Sorry about the way I sound, I know it's depressing but I really want to say that my inspiration comes from you. And that inspiration grows as you guys grow

Starting again
Day 1

Keep on trying u'll eventually nail it. A person that doesn't take his shots has no chance.
good luck!!

Rt234 wrote on 27 Jun 2021 16:00:

Correct. But It's important to remember  that the trying is a goal in itself, and it's not just about eventually nailing it!

Bhatzlocho,

My wife is out of town for a few days.
Extremely challenging.
Trying to remember what you guys are saying that the goal is the here and now, not just a long streak. 
So challenging 

Thank you all, would be nowhere without you