When a person is acting out, it is someties an indication that he is lacking a certain sipuk in life, as the yetzer hora most often comes to a person when he is feeling empty. It is well-known that the Rambam writes that thoughts of arayos only come to a person whose heart is panui meichochmas haTorah, devoid of Torah wisdom, and that one should direct his mind to divrei Torah if he wants to overcome this nisayon .

Therefore, if a person is able to improve in learning, then he will be much better equipped to deal with his nisyonos. If a person is weak in learning, then appropriate goals should be set for him on his level, as it will give him a sense of satisfaction when he meets his goals.

B"H no other events to report today.
B'chasdei Hashem I was able to go out this afternoon and buy a shiny new kosher phone. Tomorrow before heading home I will be locking my smartphone in my Mashgiach's office.
I feel lighter and happier already.
At least I could do something today, take a major step in the fight. I have my weapons now. I don't carry the YH in my pocket everywhere I go.
I daven that HaKadosh Baruch Hu give me the strength to go on so I can rewire and live a life clean of all shmutz and with the proper mindset in all inyanim.

Important correction:
BHYY wrote on 25 Feb 2021 02:30:

I'm home now. As I've stated in the past, I will not touch an unfiltered device. I will try to post here at least daily (tomorrow's post may be a trifle difficult to understand...) and I will keep davening. I will Daven that Hashem help me stay clean and overcome all nisyonos and bez"h take me to 90 days and beyond, to a fulfilling, clean life.

Forget the stupid ego!
1 day clean!!!!!!!!!! 
I couldn't bring myself to post again about "petty" accomplishments. Then I realized it was the Yetzer Hora talking.

BHYY is back in the ring!

Purim and Shabbos were amazing.
B"H I'm still clean.

As some of you saw on the other thread, I had a fall yesterday. Long class, quiet building, loneliness. All the fixings for a fall.
So I've made another decision. Thanks to the wonderful Iampowerless I have decided to start attending GYEs SMART meetings. They are not local to where I live but I'm going to bezH make the drive there weekly. 
Thank you to all who gave me chizuk yesterday. I'm ready to roll and excited to learn new techniques with SMART.
Fight SMARTER not harder!

I got a big hug from my Rosh Yeshiva when I showed him that I gave up my smartphone and went back to a basic phone 
Baruch Hashem all is going well.
I have a kosher phone, I have GYE, and I'm going to meet some very special people tonight. Hodu L'Hashem.

BHYY wrote on 01 Mar 2021 17:47:

A guy who’s SMART phone became a dumb phone.
A guy who’s meetings are getting SMART. 

Of course you deserved that hug! 

Please let us know how the meeting goes and if you enjoyed it/found it useful

Not feeling so well but wanted to update.
The meeting was amazing. I highly recommend it for anyone on the fence about it. I'm looking forward to attending regularly.
I also had the tremendous zchus to meet the renowned HHM afterwards.
Overall a great night .

Really not feeling well.
Stress is starting to rise with these courses I am taking as exams are coming and I don't feel prepared. I feel like I don't have enough hours in the day.
I would love to run away from reality and slip into porn and masturbation land. But that isn't an option. It doesn't help. Because when the short escape is done I come crashing back down to reality.

BHYY wrote on 02 Mar 2021 18:48:

Yeah. Stress is a killer.

When we realize that the situation is out of our control, it is easier for us to come to the awareness of Hashem, who has our best interest in mind, and does only for our good. When a situation is in our control, we tend to magnify our effect on it - and we forget that He only gave us a "part" in it. (In reality, we never really have control over anything!) But in a situation where it's clear we have no control, we're given an easy opportunity to surrender ourselves to Hashem. This is our acceptance. We accept that there is nothing we can do, but only to rely on Hashem.

No level of comfort is good enough to replace "acceptance". We can continue upping the dosage level of our "drug of choice", but at the end of the day, if we haven't got some basic level of acceptance, all of this comfort will be in vain.

Let's do our best to keep strong and Hashem will definitely help us!

BHYY wrote on 02 Mar 2021 17:59:

I'm jealous

Striving Avreich wrote on 02 Mar 2021 21:11:

He's accessible to all... Do you want his number?