wow wow wow there are no words for how i feel right now, coming off my first week back in yeshiva, be"H i have been really enjoying my zman so far, new chavrusahs are working b"H so well, i'm enjoying my learning b"H and my geshmake chevra, and i really feel like a different person this zman. b"H i am 18 days clean and working on keeping that up. looking ahead, i see off shabossim as a potential problem but i hope to be able to be active then and iy"H beat the yeitzerr hara during those as well. iy"H we will see 90 clean days in the future!!!!

BH you sound great. Keep it up and keep sharing. You are helping all of us by showing it can be done. Hatzlocha. 

cant write so much but i am at 32 days and i am feeling great b"H! My taphsic fence is finished, only did it for a month, so i will be making a new one tomorrow night iy"H and should be okay until 90 iy"H! Good shabbos everyone

Sounds great! Keep up the good work. You are an inspiration for all of us.

I didint post for a while. Since 15 Elul 5777 I changed greatly in this area. I fell once in a while but almost every time I picked myself back up and didn’t give up. From the end of tishrai 5778 till kislev I had a 50 day streak. Then 2 30 day streaks, then a 97 day streak, then a few 30 - 50 day streaks. I will bli neder write on the forum more often which will hopefully keep me clean. I’m now clean for a week - yes I fell on shabbos shuva!!!! :-(

Moshiach5777 wrote on 23 Sep 2018 06:25:

That's pretty standard, unfortunately.