Bigmoish wrote:


you wrote:Attempting to heal ourselves only by doing spiritual teshuva seems to me like the parnassa method of ר' שמעון בר יוחאי:
הרבה עשו כמותו, ולא עלתו בידן .

and I added that even r.shimons approach in parnassa is more common that an addict recovering with teshuva alone. kapeesh?

Got it.

I'm feeling a little remiss in not having updated my thread in a while, but I really have very little to say. I've had ups and downs over the past couple of weeks, but right now I'm feeling pretty good. Hopefully that will be a good siman for the future.

Bigmoish wrote:

t'is the season

the future.....the future.......Hmmmmm.....the future....

HUH?!


THE FUTURE?! DID SOMEONE MENTION THE FUTURE?! :mad:

Where does that come in?! If life is good I should be basking in it's goodness not hoping that it will last long and healthy!! Especially because......life isn't a picnic and experience has shown us over the past few hundred years that we don't always feel pretty good!

So enjoy it, but keep your head on straight, don't get drunk with it for it can lead to hangover....

OH!! And KIT!!! KOP!!!!

I don't care what's come to pass
I just want this moment to last
I don't care about the future or its gravity
I care about now and my sanity

No care of the future, nor of the past
it's all about now, and I'm havin' a blast
That's all that we ask for - one day at a time
and for the keyboard - to get this to rhyme.

Bigmoish wrote:


Just read this post again, and I think I was actually sleeping when I typed it. I have very little recollection of writing these words, and you are correct, yankel and avrom, they make no sense. Sorry for the confusion.

This may have something to do with why I liked the gibbor120 quote in my siggy so much...

It's been a while since I last posted. Been busy with yom tov preparations, work, kids, and throw in the fact that I can only go on GYE when my wife is not around.
I still read all the threads, just haven't been posting much.
In a way, I feel like I have everything "figured out" (total nonsense), and I'm not really interested in saying how amazing life is, so I have nothing to say.

I'm still here if anyone wants me, so don't freak out.

Ah Gutten Kvittel to all,

Moish

i don't know how much you've figured out for yourself. but trust me, when i was feeling pretty stuck, you were probably the most helpful in pulling me out. so keep shteiging, because you already have one of the last steps of teshuva, which rabbeinu yonah (and i think Lehavdil AA) says is helping others with their aveiros. Of course, some of the earlier steps are harder. Hatzlocha!

Hopefully our teshuva was a bit more sincere than this one...
and accepted more.

it is so annoying. I am 55 days clean and I still had a difficult night last night. I was up till 6 fighting my yetzer hara. When will I stop having these withdrawal symptoms!!!!??? Is this late night desire just part of life that I'll have to live with or will I be able to control that too and sleep with ease??

HI mybrother helps me. Perhaps start a thread for your self! Simply click "new topic" and introduce yourself!

hey there MBHM!!

Wlecome to GYE!!

Don't be a stranger, tell us more about yourself!

As for that question, I don't think anyone can answer that definitively. The common experience here is, though, that it does get easier. I don't know how long you have been acting out, but for me 55 days is a drop in the bucket, and it wouldn't be reasonable for me to say "Well I'm "clean" for 55 days, so those ten of years of lusting should just fall away magically!!"

(I put clean in quotations because it can have different meanings. Are you not lusting at all, or are you lusting and just not acting out?)

Keep on Posting!! Keep on Trucking!!

mybrotherhelpsme wrote:

I'm not sure why you decided to post this on this particular thread (hashgacha pratis?), but I can definitely relate to that feeling very much.
Keep at it, brother.