sounds like the reverse of Bilaam's tactic

i took another step - i threw out some old movies of mine.but i'm still holding on to my favorite - can't seem to part with it.

Good going Jack!

keep doing mitzvos!

here are some ideas:
www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=4579.msg135133#msg135133

i have one more movie that i can't part with - guard told me to save it for the biur chometz fire on ervev pesach.do you realize what will happen if i throw this last movie out? it's the last trace of hollywood left in my house (i wont talk about my secular music).

in other news: just some thoughts that are in my head now: the world of sin beckons us.it wants to pull you in.and then you know what happens when you fall on your face? they laugh at you, and they dont help you to get up.they wait for the next victim to laugh at.lo chain nasata Hashem Elokecha - kol yisrael arayvim zeh bazeh.here at GYE people will help you up, and will not laught at you if you fall.
where would you rather be? out there in the cold world of sin, where people couldn't care less about you, or your wife, or your zees children, or your Torah laws, etc.or would you rather be here, in a safe environment, where people DO care for you and your families? remember that person (dont remember who) who needed to be tested for disease? well, I remember how everyone pleaded with him to get tested and NEVER do that again.we dont even know who we're talking to - yet we know he's our brother or sister.
Thank you reb guard!! for giving us this wonderful place that we can call home!
jack
ps. as always, i am talking to myself, and thinking out loud. there is no way i would ever tell anyone what to do.

It's getting really lonely here...

C' mon, there's plenty of empty seats on the Monstuh bus!!

from a psychological standpoint, addiction seems to be related to obsessive compulsive dsorder.michelle told me that obsession is in the mind, and compulsion is the obsession carried out in deed. although not all therapists know about addictions, they SHOULD know about treating OCD.OCD is a safety mechanism.maybe, just maybe, if we treat our OCD, it can help us. sound reasonable?

tell you one thing - without the internet i would have never found recovery!

jack wrote on 22 May 2012 18:25:


Without the internet, Jack, you would not have needed recovery!

(I'm joking - I know that's not true in your case).

Kedusha wrote on 22 May 2012 20:14:



Not true in my case either. I was fantasizing and masturbating for decades before I used the Internet and I only stopped when I found http://www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/

right - my thing was video stores with viewing booths or movie theatres (not many theatres left where i live).by the way, a video store just opened 10 minutes away from where i live - just my luck.and no, they don't sell uncle moishy videos!

my shmiras eynayim still suffers.i can't control my eyes! i guess i'm not ready yet.i already feel like i lost my whole life (po** & ma**) , now to lose even more (looking)!

Jack.

I always think of you. when i started here over a year ago, i read your 90 day history in detail on the old, old website. You truly inspired me, i keep on saying to myself, if Jack could make it, i can too. When i feel weak, i think of Jack. When my torah learning or dovening are not as i wanted after being over 1 year clean, i think about jack, he wrote somewhere that it could take about 3 years.

Kepp on trucking.

thanks.i'm glad i can be of assistance.now i need more - i have to learn how to throw away the rest of my past I already threw out all my hollywood movies.r' guard told me a long time ago, shmiras eynayim will be even harder.wow - how can you get harder than throwing out the porn?! what will be left of me? i know, i know, the REAL me.but that's just in the head - i've got to FEEL it, FEEL it.

Jack, i've got some profound wisdom to share
ready or not here comes:
Jack! Veiter!
'nuff said
keep up your great work

i hear, i hear.i'm a little scared to take that 'final(?)' plunge.is there a final plunge? i'm scared to give up the entire being of who i was for my entire adult life from age 11-53..on the other hand, i've come so far.on the other hand, it's terrifying.you know what that would mean? if i stopped looking? if i took away my last vestige of feeding my lust?
if anyone really pushes me, i might just listen..
jack