15. I used to love hashem because he loves me, now I looove hashem (as much as the siyata dishmeiya that hashem gives me to be able to love him) because he looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooves me to no extent.

16. When I used to try to stay clean, I would be in a bad mood anything would tick me off, I would get mad in a few seconds, and I would think of everyone around me that they aren't nearly as holy and special as me because they're not staying clean like I am {selfish guy }, now I am clean in a positive mood, happy with myself, I don't get angry so fast, and I feel humble and thankful for hashem cleaning me, not me cleaning myself, therefore the people around are much more holy then I am, I look up at everyone, and love all of kllal yisrael, Hashem's children.

Thanks BenHashem, This one was inspired by your post #13.
Runing away in a bad and baal gaiva way is tiring.
Runing away in humble way is Positive and inspiring.

17. I never knew that a woman's walk can be triggering, but now after practically not seeing any women {obviously talking about 2nd looks} for about 2 months, boy can it be a trigger. 

What an ever lasting opportunity to keep on winning, if it's not with looking, at least the ear is unavoidable. 

18. Shabbos used to be a cue, it used to mean me looking at all the women in the street who were obviously dressed beautifully for me so that I should enjoy, but now shabbos is about winning for 24 hours straight, and the women dress beautifully for hashem. 

19. I used to view sex as an opportunity for me to achieve intimacy, I now view it as an opportunity for us to achieve true intimacy. 

For a detailed version click here.

20. Back in the day when I tried to stay clean and not look at the women in the street, I would have imaginary women being born and growing in my mind, they would grow and grow till I just couldn't control myself anymore.

But now when skipping to look at the women passing me, I'm under control not imagining anything, and if God forbid imaginations start forming on their own, I just humanize them and nicely watch them fade away.

21. I used to define "the dark tunnel" as a mushy chulent consisting of all my problems. 

But now I define the "tunnel" as the things that causes the darkness which is the tabooness, and me hating myself, everything else is just the side effects of being inside the tunnel but not the tunnel itself.

22. I used to define the "light at the end of the tunnel" as me being reborn without any struggles.

But now I define it as having methods engraved in me that have become my second nature, to know how to deal with my struggles, like talking to friends, humanizing, etc.

23. I used to be able to stay quite for days on end, Now I try to say at least 2 things a day with which my life changed since joining GYE. 

24. I used to think I have soo much to say, Now I see that I'm runing out of ideas at #24.

I guess thats another reason why we try to make friends here on GYE, so that others can chip in and help me achieve at least 2 things a day. 

Before I had to force myself not to fantasize every time I had a conversation with a woman, now I can talk to her as a person! (De-objectifying women!)

Lifes stresses, anxieties, and other feelings of the kind are now easier to deal with without the illusion that porn and masturbation will help me.

Amazing glad to hear

I used to feel Pain and Pressure
As a force 
that compelled reaction. 

Now I feel and know
That I can choose 
if and how I will act.

This has translated into growth in every other area of life. 

#TYG