Hi everyone for the first yurtzeit of Oct 7 I'm opening a thread of fighting the way the צהל fought with dancing and excitement 

Everyone is welcome to post a chizuk vort that helps \ helped them, positive reactions, even small wins that made you excited (even if the excitement lasted for 5 seconds).

עם ישראל חי בעלויות בירידות גם בשעות הכי" קשות הקב"ה שומר עלינו"

ביחד ננצח

First chizuk post for today 

I'm having a very hard time {aka 2-3 weeks turbulence} so I texted Rabeinu HHM that I'm going crazy looking around all over the streets I'm just not ok.
To which he replied "your normal" I just laughed.

Here I am this crazy Guy and he's joking around with me telling me that I'm normal?

Reminded me of the story of the kutzker who's talmud was drowning it was a hopeless situation, when the kutzker yelled to him to send regards to the livyasan when he drowns, that joke gave the drowning man the courage to fight his way out.

It definitely was the same here, Rabeinu HHM's jokes that I'm normal made me laugh and is sort of helping me out 

Hatzlacha everyone 

So here's what happened over the past 28 days:

After the great invasion / kidnapping / slaughter of CHAMAS aka yetzer hara on my... self, thru p&m, thoughts, fantasy's, etc. me and my battalion aka yetzer tov went down to observ the dammage inflicted on me, oh it was a terrible site, the blood was all over {yes my heart was bleading non-stop} family's were broken after loosing their loved ones {my wife lost her beloved husband, my kids had a father who was kidnapped far away in fantasy land, my talmidim had a rabbi a traitor, etc.} there was waaaaarrrrrrrr.


And so after talking to the prime minister NETANYAHU aka Rabeinu HHM, we declared war on CHAMAS aka YH, And so me and my BATTALION aka YT, went down there and put up a relentless fight, all the while CHIZEBALLA - yh distraction tactic is shooting rockets on me from all sides. 

The first 2 weeks was kind of bliss we were knocking em out, killing them {the thoughts} one by one, it was just great looking like were basically done with them, we where just dancing & partying in this war.

But then the HOOTIE'S & IRAN aka fantasy land decided to intervene, by sending 180 - 500 rockets full of fantasies in a span of every 5 minutes, while most rockets were shot down by the IRON DOME aka F2F TOOLS, it was just to much at a time to shoot them all down, and so we struggled with the new found fight against IRAN aka fantasy, we needed to figure out a strategy to over come them for once and for all.    

Thats when Prime minister Netanyahu aka HHM introduced me to the DEFENSE MINISTER GALLANT aka MUTTEL, and together all three of us sat in the situation room figuring out good tacticts and strategized how to to win this, we were going for a massive retaliation attack against IRAN, one that the world has never seen before.

The Prime minister & Dfense minister have approved of the massive counter attack, but i wasn't sure yet, because after all BIDEN aka - YH AMALEK tactic was calling for a CEASEFIRE thru Diplomatic means, why keep up the rhetoric and risk escalation of the fight when we can compromise and give in abit to IRAN aka YH thru diplomacy?

But in the end BH my BATTALION aka YT won and sided with NETANYAHU hhm & GALLANT muttel, we put up a massive retaliation attack and didn't compromise what so ever.

AND NOW WE'RE KEEPING UP THIS GREAT FIGHT "FOREVER" AFTER with dancing and excitement just like in the first 2 weeks, with hashems help, and with this great GYE community of best friends ever we`ll fight forever and win win & win again like never before.

rebakiva wrote on 07 Oct 2024 17:48:

For the record, I actually replied "you're normal", not "your normal". Yes, that's intended to put a smile on your face as well.

Let's face it. We don't and can't change overnight. We will have urges. We will miss these fantasy escapes. We will experience withdrawal. Just like the fellow who starts keeping kosher misses his cheeseburger. So yes, you are normal! And b'ezras Hashem you will stay clean by laughing it all off. Tell the Satan (and your subconscious) " Hey buddy, you may as well leave me alone. I just don't panic and obsess about this stuff anymore. I understand it is expected to desire, but b'ezras Hashem I am staying clean, so you may as well just leave me alone..."

Reb Akiva,

Meeting you was such a sweet experience, seeing your great שאיפות and your climb there, successfully!

בעזרת השם it won't be long before you begin pulling others from the חמס traps and into a safe bunker, and from there to safe territory!!

באהבה עמוקה, בלב ונפש חמה
Muttel

Hi everyone I have no words to describe my excitement for achieving this huge milestone for me as I just hit 30 days clean.

Yes it was hard but I learned so much, 
I got so much intelligence briefings from prime Minister HHM and defense Minister MUTTEL became so much smarter in this fight and more or less a new person, it was a 180 degree turn around.

Over the past 30 I've achieved in winning the most critical part of this war,
Together with prime Minister HHM and defense Minister MUTTEL we assassinated Ismael hania, chasan nassarella, hasheem safadin, {yh partners known as the סמ} and many more klippos.
We blew up almost all rockets and rocket launchers {fantasies} .
Yachia "SINwar" {aka yh just look at his name he's the one putting up the war of sin} is in hiding petrified for his life, and so is ayatola kumeiny the wife nekaiva of yh known as lilu"s also hiding and pleading for dear life.

Urge's, thoughts, and fantasies are basically down to 3%, true intimacy is climbing up like crazy getting better by the day, my wife now has a husband who helps her much more, doesn't get upset at her even when she yells at him {almost never happens but...} Just listens with care and passion, my kids have a father who's present and suddenly has time and patience for them.
I'm just a new person honestly I'm finally a good human being 
Thanks everyone from this great platform all the great friends who care and give chizuk, and thank you and I salute to your honor dear prime Minister HHM and dear defense Minister MUTTEL I wouldn't be anywhere without you 

Thanks a million and I wish the same hatzlacha to all my fellow brothers here on GYE

Wow!!

Reb Akiva, you didn’t become a new person, you were always this, just you had a struggle that needed to be won, and you did it! 

To say I am proud of you is an understatement. You stepped up and did the hard work, seeing what you can do to change direction. How much I’ve learned from you…..

Now, go take your tremendous kochos and pull others from the mud….

With a heart overflowing with brotherly love,
Muttel

Thank you so much r' muttel for replying it means so much to me (after all we're all attention seekers to some extent )

Weirdest thing happened to me today.
In middle of the night I dreamed that I'm having a fantasy and I fell and m...
I woke up right away all tensed up and tried being mechazek myself that it was just a wet dream and it's not my fault I'm really a good guy etc. then I fell back asleep.

Later I woke up in the morning and checked myself all around but for no means could I find the slightest sign of m... I was kind of bewildered.

Then not long ago it hit me I didn't do any m... Neither did I even wake up in reality the whole thing was just a dream.
Which brings me to 2 points 

1. Look how desperate the YH is, my subconscious when I'm awake is starting to get under control, so he's trying to operate in secrecy by making me dream that I had a wet dream.

2. MASSIVE CHIZUK: my half dead body when sleeping and my YT is aware of everything I've learned in the past month from HHM MUTTEL and the whole GYE community, so I dreamed that I woke up startled and was able to be mechazek myself in my dream.

Thanks everyone

Wow!

keep it up! (I had somewhat of this experience, though not quite as exciting, after 2 weeks of being clean. It’s a sign of good things to come!)

Muttel

Hi everyone a good chol hamoed.

With great enthusiasm and excitement I can now officially confirm that SINwar aka small YH is dead  {altough ayatolo kumeini aka big yh is still alive, but at least hes in hiding on the verge of dieing) after shooting and wounding him I was able to go into his room assassinate him and bring his body home with me for a good bargening tool!

Honestly I'm not quite sure how it actually went but I do know that this past 3 day yom tov was the first time in my life that i basically didn't see anyone on the streets, and even when seeing someone without looking I finally didn't see a s... bowl, but rather a pure holy neshama who's dressing nicely to honor hashem (not me).

To me this was yet the biggest achievement, as shabbos and mainly yom tov especially such a long one was always my biggest cues.

Thank you hashem for giving me gye, the geatest community of friends, and such great mentors as hhm, muttel, eerie, etc.

Hi everyone a good mo-ed

I'm in desperate need of help currently in the Hershey Park chol hamo-ed event basically only Jewish people but obviously very triggering.

After a back and forth with HHM who demanded I take my glasses off but I refuse to do so out of scare from letzunos from my extended family so in the end I just made a peshara to move it halfway down My nose and pretend that it keeps on falling down.

It's very dizzying and I'm currently feeling sick and dizzy. 

Looking forward to whatever help my dear friends can offer.

Maybe you can get very busy on your phone. (I can add you to some tehillim chats - lol)

Other idea, pretend a bad stomachache and spend alot of time at the restrooms. Or a splitting headache and head to the car!

I kept my eyes down and/or unfocused for the most part at today and yesterday's trips. That worked pretty well as well!

Hatzolah. Hope it all works out!

Hi thank you eintov for your response and thank you everyone for the great help today.

Just want to post a quick update on my day so as I've mentioned I refused HHMs proposal to take my glasses off but I did at least move it halfway down my nose, and so for 7 hours I had a crazy tickling nose and eyes that are seeing without glasses but when looking down seeing with glasses which is really dizzying and sickening.

Sometime towards the end of the day my nose started falling off .

But in the end I got home feeling like i went through the longest dry walkthrough mikvah, no water, but a real cleansing process, something i've never experienced before.

also I was in good spirits the entire day even during the major challenge, and everyone enjoid the day and my presence, I didn't make any greeceball pressure that causes everyone around you to feel edgy and as if they're doing something wrong, it was just that i was quietly doing whats wright with out anyone noticing. (yes my wife did tell me a few times that my glasses are sliding down and that i look ridicules when i look out from over my glasses, but when i told her that my nose is very oily and sweatty she didnt say anything, not that she bought my excuse shes smarter than that, but shes also smart enough not to press charges...)

BUt in the end i stayed with one major dilemma a huge problem, "had my nose fallen off, how would i be able to fall off my nose, going forward????????

You wouldn't be able to wear glasses if your nose fell off, so it's all good, lol.

Love the humor!