Hi, i had something that i wanted in business, and made a deal with Hashem that until this and that goes through i will stay clean, it was something that was spouses  to take a couple of days but for some reason its taking couple of months already, but b'h im still clean, and still waiting the loan should go through, but the point is that it is all in the brane, because when i didn't have this kabala everything triggered me and it was crazy hard to stay clean but now that i know that i cant the triggers are much weaker and i can b'h get by and its not so hard, becouse the brane knows that there is nothing he can do now so there is no point in getting so triggered