I never thought that it would be possible for me to stop masturbation. I WAS doing it daily for years. I would also occasionally act out online when I was down and/or because of my then emotionally distant wife.
The programs on GYE was helpful for me to hold off from masturbating for longer periods, but I still was doing it, especially when I was stressed and down.
When I found a mentor through GYE things turned around. It took some time but eventually this friend changed my life. He freed me besiyata dishmaya from masturbation. I never in my life would have believed that this could or would happen.
After being mz"l i would as hashem to help me and others from this challenge and hashem sent me a shaliach. Thank you so much to GYE!
It didn't end there.
I still struggled and continue to be challenged with an emotionally distant wife. .
My mentor encouraged me not to give up on her. Tell her how much she means to you "he said". I kept on telling her how much she means to me. I bought her flowers or a gift every week. She slowly is becoming more loving.
It didn't end there.
I was unable to ejaculate without thinking about spanking. I now can ejaculate by concentrating on the act of being together with her.
With Hashem's help I will continue on.
Please get a mentor for yourself if you don't have one yet.
