I read the chizzuk email today and the part where Jack outlines some benefits of staying clean. This prompted me to read his 90 day time-line, towards the end of which (day 64) there was an interesting exchange between himself and R' Twerski, through GYE. This is all availble on the site, but I just wanted to share this because I found it amazing:



Q. We posed the following question to Rabbi Avraham J. Twerski:

Dear Rabbi Twerski,

Yesterday Jack wrote me the following:

I'm DEPRESSED - i feel like I lost my BEST FRIEND!! The porn made me happy. There's nothing that can replace that for me. I am empty inside now. I spoke to Elya last night, and he listened to me. There's nothing that makes me as happy as those images on the screen, and now that i gave that up, i don't know where to turn for happiness. I'm having a rough time of it. jack

I know that the Rav has much experience in this area, and if the Rav has a few minutes to give him some pointers, it could prove invaluable to saving him now and also help provide direction to us as well.

Thank you very much!

A: written by fax, so I've attached it as a file

After being clean for a year, we wished Jack Mazal Tov and he replied:

Yes, it's hard for me to believe that's it's a full year. I went through torture, if you remember. But it was worth it, boy was it worth it. It would have been much much easier not to do anything about it, but I grabbed on to you guys and I never let go. And I don't plan on ever letting go.

I have to remember that I can fall any time at the drop of a hat. So far I haven't, but I know I have to be on my guard every second. Just this morning I thought about what would be born from my actions if I would stumble, and it stopped me. I AM an addict and I have to watch it.

And by the way, Rabbi Twerski says that someone can become an addict to anything, such as alcohol, as long as it fills a void. Remember the 'void' that I cried about last year and you wrote to Rabbi Twerski twice for me (see here and here)? Well, B"H I don't feel that void anymore. Don't ask me why, because I won't be able to tell you, but I just don't feel it anymore, thank G-d!