Hi All,

I've been lurking around here for quite a while, I've posted a few times and connected with a couple of you over the past year or so. 

The past year -since the end of last summer- I've had some really great stretches and some pretty rough crashes! I started out going about 6 months clean after connecting to HHM and doing accountability program with him. After awhile I felt like I had everything figured out and kinda lost touch with him, which obviously ain't the case and eventually ended up falling. Since then I've been back to the regular ups and downs, going a few weeks clean then falling etc etc.

Today one of the chevra here reached out and encouraged me to get back on here, so here I am! At this point I realize that I need your guys help to get me through this battle so putting myself out here! 

Looking forward to connecting with you all!

Welcome back! 
you can probably relate to the Mishnah ואל תאמין בעצמך עד יום מותך (אבות ב,ד)
the yh never gives up 
I heard a story about the yh telling someone to sleep in “a bit” more, and he told the yh you wake up early every morning to do hashem’s will I will do the same
(if anyone knows please correct add who it was said about if you know the story)
much continued Hatzlocho!