Hello GYE family,
At this point I'm not ready yet (Hopefully one day i will) to share my full story but BH i have HHM holding on my hands on a daily basis which gives me tremendous Chizuk and Koach to be where i am, today 72 which is a special # Chesed, these days are special to be counting as that's the purpose of Sefirah which Klal Yisroel did back then when they went out of Mitzrayim.
I will try to write something every so often to get and hopefully give Chizuk to others as well.
I wanna write a small millstone that i had this week, i would rather not go into the details, but it was something that i saw that back in the days that would be a trigger to a fall and an urge, BH with Hashems help it didn't take me into any mess and i was BH able to on with my schedule which wouldn't be the case in my past.
let me finish with what we say every day now
וְאֶטָּהֵר וְאֶתְקַדֵּשׁ בִּקְדֻשָּׁה שֶׁל מַעְלָה, וְעַל יְדֵי זֶה יֻשְׁפַּע שֶׁפַע רַב בְּכָל הָעולָמות וּלְתַקֵּן אֶת נַפְשׁותֵינוּ וְרוּחותֵינוּ וְנִשְׁמותֵינוּ מִכָּל סִיג וּפְגַם וּלְטַהֲרֵנוּ וּלְקַדְּשֵׁנוּ בִּקְדֻשָׁתְךָ הָעֶלְיונָה, אָמֵן סֶלָה:
and Hashem should help that we should Bekurev be Zoche to הָרַחֲמָן, הוּא יַחֲזִיר לָנוּ עֲבודַת בֵּית הַמִּקְדָּשׁ לִמְקומָהּ בִּמְהֵרָה בְּיָמֵינוּ, אָמֵן סֶלָה:
Today also the Yurtzeit of R' Shaya Ben R' Moshe, which although he was a Kudoish V'thoir he understood to the simple problems of the Pusheta Yidden should he continue in Heaven to give us the Koches that we all need as he said that they should make a window in his Ohel because he stays here for us, so זכותו הגדול יגן עלינו ועל כל ישראל
