hey everyone im the champ!  well not yet.  i have been struggling with m for years and p has been more or less under control but now a new 'nisoyon' has me in a constant non filtered place of nisoyon!    what should i do???? is there hope for me?  should i 'blog' on this forum about my progress????

Welcome and yes most definitely blog about your progress, and more helpful maybe pick up the phone and call a chaver here who has hands on experience on your nisayon Hatslacha!!!

Hey thechamp, congrats for getting the motivation to introduce yourself and congrats for mostly getting P under control - thats huge! As for this new nisayon, I would suggest-- like what was by lamaazavtuni said-- either try reaching out to a mentor you may have on here (if you don't have one yet lmk and I can put you in touch with one) or talk about it on here. This does 4 things:

1. It breaks a part of the yetzer haras hold on this nisayon by no longer keeping it a bound secret and gets it out to the light of this world (ie. the yetzer tov) which helps you break free from it no longer being a secret  struggle and instead can give you chizzuk

2. It gives people on here a chance to see the strength and good which is in each and everyone of us (even though it may be repressed) and let's us give advice from our own unique lives and experiences in this daunting world to help you through your struggle

3. You and other's may realize that this struggle is something many people are struggling with and can give hope to one another.

4. Last, but not least, (more or less mentioned through the above 3) it'll give you ideas and advice from the chevra on GYE to overcome this challenge as opposed to trying to overcome it on your own - which in my personal experience has never really worked out before.

ok im going to be blogging about my progress ups and downs on the 90 day chat 

who can you put me in touch with? 

Proud is gonna give you the list soon!!! you can find his list on many threads... i don't know how to copy paste.., but if you pm i can give you some of their contacts, hatzlocha! stick around!

HHi! Welcome! I saw a little about your nisayon in your other thread. If there really is no way to remove the ability (try asking @lionking; he's my resident tech man), then there's no ability to run, and this is the nisayon Hashem wants you to face (one of the missions He created you to accomplish). I'm gonna recommend trying to boost your motivation every day, such as with a few pages of The Battle of the Generation guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation.
Hatzlocha!