i regret to inform my holy brothers that i fell big time, now i am hung over, yokkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. three weeks thats it i was only able to do....

Yidster wrote on 21 Jan 2010 23:41:


That's it?!?!?!

You kept yourself clean for three weeks! That's incredible! How many seconds is that? Every single second that you held yourself back, you got an incredible connection to hashem, and that doesn't go away! What you built, remains!

It seems to me like the yetzer hora saw you starting to build something beautiful with your wife, and he wants you to have a hangover...

Connect with your wife! Keep on trucking!

What would you be willing to do to correct the fall?
The Chozeh of Lublin says: People think that after they do an aveirah - the Y"H got them, his plan worked, and he succeeded in getting out of them what he wanted. Therefore they are depressed. But the truth is, the Y"H doesn't really care too much about the few aveiros he gets a person to do. What he really wants is for him to fall into depression and despair so that he has access to control of his life!!
Reb Yidster, he managed to distract you and got you to look his way. But don't let him convince you to start actually moving towards him.

If you feel your negative state is legitimate, then you have to be that way all the time. 100 Honesty. If your not bursting with joy every time you put on tefillin which is a huge mitzva, then you have no right to be dejected when you do an aveirah. It's obviously not coming from an honest place, or it would be present in all situations - for better or for worse c"v.

If you want to correct the fall - get back up!!

I hope you have a lichtiger Shabbos.
Have extra kavanah by "samach nafsheinu b'yeshuosecha".
Kiddush on leil Shabbos is the greatest time for teshuvah.

Thanks for the words of chizuk, I thought I can do it by being on GYE and phone meeting.. But I fell.. I went to a sa meeting ( for the second time) on Friday and I have to admit it was really nice, there was about 8 guys all very normal, they were very welcoming, it felt good being there and I plan I"yh going at least 1-3 times a week, I believe it is the only way out to be free forever, if I do what I have been doing this past three weeks I will just have ups and downs.. I want to be a mench a real mentch not a fake with a sick dirty secret..
I daven to hashem that he give me the koach to do want I need to do to be free.
A gut voch to all

It's incredible to see you doing whatever can be done to grow. You are truly inspiring!

I would point out that sometimes, even with the best support system, you might fall - and at times like that, you just need to pick yourself up. It doesn't mean that there's something wrong with the system - we just need to figure out why we fell, and avoid making the same mistake next time.

Rock on!

Yidster wrote on 21 Jan 2010 23:41:
Three weeks?! I am not able to do even one week...probably even one day. And I mean it.
It's letting Hashem in, for a change, that makes the difference for me.
As far as the hangover, youch! oh boy do I remember that....sorry to hear, hope you get back in the game soon, as: a yidster deserves the good life!!

hi guys,
i dont have much to write now other that i am back and rolling, i went to another meeting yesterday it was okay and i look forward going to another one, i hope tomorrow, it is another location so i got to build up my courage all over again...
take care my friends

KOCHA! (keep on chugging along)

Kol Hakavod to my dear yidster for going all out and attending meetings!!! Hope things afre working out for you. Between meetings and this forum and the posts of the Great R Dov youll iyh get very far. Please keep us updated on your progress. Wishing you the best week eveh!

Glad to hear that you're rocking - no matter what, keep moving, and never give up! Instead, give it to hashem!

Hey everyone I am still around and with hashems help I am clean for almost three weeks, meeting are good.. I feel so blessed over the past six weeks since I stared to stop my lustful thinking,I feel like a real mentch and my yiras shamayim is starting to increase..
A gut voch to all

Fantastic! I hope you feel incredibly proud of yourself, because I know that Hashem is proud of you!

Hope you have a great week!

Hello Chevra
i have been out of touch with this website but have been in touch with dc's calls and have been going to SA meetings, b'h the meetings really help and as long as i am doing the program i am doing well, the problem is when i think i have everything under control and that all is good and fine, i need to practice step one, i need to say it, i am powerless over lust and turn it over to hashem.

i am on a whole new level of recovery  now that my wife knows, she found out last week and of course she was extremely shocked, she totally did not see that coming from a guy like me, b'h after three days of her not talking to me, she finally was able to comes to terms with it, she has checked out all my post on this site and now she kind knows where i am coming from, i need to thank hashem for blessing me with such a great wife who will be on the road with me, she will do all that she can that i remain sober ( although she did say that if she catches me one more time she will tell my mother her mother... yikes )

Hatzlacha to everyone

Thanks - and thank you for updating us, it's always wonderful to hear such good news!