Ok so for integrity purposes last night had a Shtikle major slip (HHM insist it isn't a fall even though it feels that way), I think it's time to tighten the ship a little more, I saw it coming, I was breaking gedararim left and right for the past couple of days, really I should've reached out before the slip for chizuk but now here I am, I'm going to add some pages of TBOTG every night to keep all this on the forefront of my mind, and be shtarker about txting before and after online use (really I should cut it all out but I'm scared that if I do it wont hold and when I do go on it'll feel bad enough that I'll just do whatever I want).

Car mirrors. I have an interesting and unique affection for them. It all began when I first learned to drive. For some reason i couldn't quite grasp exactly which lane the fast approaching car was actually in. I used to kind of guess and hope for the best. Fists clenched and heart racing, I'd change lanes - and breath a sigh of relief.



Eventually, after about a year of driving, i finally got it straight. I remember the excitement of being able to know exactly where and how far away all the cars around me were just by glancing at my three mirrors. I still love to passionately explain to new drivers all the tricks i invented to help them master their car-mirror skills. 

Tonight only further cemented my deep historical relationship with said mirrors as in them i caught my first glimpse of a man I've come to know quite well. Skepticism and openmindedness aside, i appreciate you for that along with everything else. 


humbly,


minhamayim

minhamayim wrote on 02 Apr 2025 06:08:

Sometimes I wonder what would have been,

what would have been if such a young kid didn’t get an unfiltered device at such a young age,

what would have been if he hadn’t discovered all there is to see online,

what would have been had someone reached out to this kid drowning in pain and confusion,

what would have been if someone took the weight of his world off his shoulders,

what would have been if he felt loved and accepted despite it all,

what would have been…….

who knows, but one things for sure he wouldn’t have the friend he has in you now.



Warmly,
ratherstayanonymous

So contrary to popular belief I am Bh alive, well, and very much still part of this fight. For the first time in many years I went through a BH without any falls truth be told I’m still a little 
shocked that it went so well, don’t get me wrong it wasn’t all smooth sailing there definitely were the occasional slips here and there and readjustments to my gedarim at home but bh managed to pull through, I think the key was mainly to stay in touch with some GYE friends (and even meeting one in person), but lemaysa every end is a new beginning and now that BH has come to a close its time to look at what’s ahead….. a new zman in BMG, I don’t really know yet what the matziv is like and I can only imagine what new challenges it has instore being in Lakewood with a car and all, but I guess I’ll take it as it comes.








Can’t believe I almost forgot my BH highlight, Brov shevach v’hoda to hkb”h I got engaged to a wonderful girl, looking forward to dancing with the oilem by my chasuna, anonymously of course:wink:

ratherstayanonymous wrote on 02 May 2025 17:08:

See the power of just ONE bein hazmanim clean! Wow!

Kidding aside, mazel tov on both accomplishments. Iy"h the work you put in will be a tremendous help towards starting your marriage off strong.

Hatzlacha!