Hey, i never really thought id post but here I am.
i don’t really have a story, just kind of got into watching inappropriate content a while back and stil struggling, even after so many commitments to breaking free…
just hopeful for a brighter future free of these behaviors.
however after being lost in this endless tunnel its hard to imagine a life free of this and if anyone has any tips, would be much appreciated!

Shalom yayme1!

Here's a warm welcome to GYE, where many find hope. I'll leave the tips to the pros, but what I can tell you is here you'll find many many people who were probably in situations as 'hopeless' as yours and found their way out, often without much pain by their own testimony. If you want to break free and you're committed, stick around and your story will be the next one in the ever growing collection of kidushei hashem which is GYE.

Thank you! 
Much appreciated.
it’s nice to see that people care!

Hi guys,
i was here for just a few moments and amazed by all the warm responses and comments 
just want to share a little more about myself, i started my struggle in yeshivah on a friends unfiltered device and seeing real p*rn was a little horrifying but from then i got used to it and super hooked which eventually lead to ma****** 
its been a few years now and  just wanna let u guys know that there’s been lots of ups and downs .
the point is that now I’m a weak clean bh and usually the first week is easy, but now reality is starting to set in (what I mean is that I don’t feel so much that it would be so bad to go back into these behaviors when a urge comes up…) and the going starting to get tough…
just looking for tips for when you’re not really feeling the inspiration to keep on working on yourself…?

Tzadik, welcome

Firstly I must commend you for reaching out. It isn't easy to open up about this very deep and personal topic. 

Secondly, you made the right choice. You came to the right place. 
Here you'll meet people who have been in your situation and have managed to break free and turned their lives around. And as said above, even if you have been in the shmutz for many years, it's a lot easier than you might think. 

One good place to start is by speaking to Harav Michel Gelner.

He's been around the block a few times and has personally shlepped multiple (hundreds/thousands) out of the dirt singlehandedly, myself included. 
michelgelner@gmail.com
It's a call you won't regret. 

Stick around and shmooze to the beloved tzadikim here. They'll become your friends and they'll help you through the bad times and cheer you through the good times. 

Wishing you all the best on your journey. 

All my love
Od Yossef Chai

Hi! Welcome to the warmest family on earth, my friend!
Stick around, read some threads, ask, listen, and you'll soon see that things can really change

What you describe after a week of being clean is very common. What you have to think is this: Why do I want to stop? I would guess that your answer is 'because it makes me feel ichy, dirty, like a piece of garbage, etc.'. And when a week goes by, and the feeling that you felt right after you fell wore off, then we can start wondering, "What's so bad about doing it?". There's another thing at play, that of your body not getting what it's used to, and to start loudly demanding it
So, what's the eitza? First of all, think about why do you really want to stop. The F2F calls it "motivations for change". Once you have firmly established that you want to stop, and you have solid reasons for that decision, then having the emotional support of friends here that really care will beH be very helpful for you to actualize what you would like to accomplish

Looking forward to watching you soar!
Eerie

Yes that’s vey true. Thanks for posting!
PPL think that once you quit and decide to change and actually DO see some change that’s its enough, but there’s a lot of the other challenges that come up along the way, like withdrawal etc. that can be just challenging…. The main thing is that u need to constantly work on changing and growing, (until eventually your brain starts to get used to your new habits and not so NEEDY for the old ways of getting excited.)