Just checking in with the chevra, bh we are at day 18 doing well and continuing to grow, wanna wish everyone a happy wholesome yom tov!

Hello chevra! hope were all doing great!, I have some somber news to share with my fellow gye friends, i was nebach diagnosed, now before i even continue please take a minute to be mispallel for altehmirrer ben his mother, thank you so much as the tefilos of my fellow gyers are vey powerful!

The good news is that all the doctors agree that the situation is hopeful, but they say that alot of the recovery really depends on me the patient, so i'm hoping to do my part.

Now for some details the name of this sickness is YENEM MACHLA (not to be confused with yeneh machla ch''v), it is a detrimental sickness which affects every second of the patients day, it robs him of any menucha, it is terrible, as it robs him from his very essence, here is a description of some of the symptoms,
1. living life to impress YENEM
2. always trying to copy YENEM
3. never thinking for oneself, only for YENEM
never truly being ok with myself, never believing in myself, thinking of myself as a worthless piece of garbage, the only value i had was what others would think of me, bec. i thought nothing of myself, so all my life i would do the motions of YENEM,  as a kid... as a bochur... and as a yungerman... always comparing myself to YENEM, to the "in" guy, hoping (and sometimes succeeding) that those around me would think of me as YENEM, never really feeling connected to it, and never feeling real, but that was my only fuel that i knew of, after all what's my other option? to be garbage to me and to others? i may as well atleast fool others.....

Bh since i joined gye and since i am rediscovering life i am doing alot better, more comfortable and accepting of myself, and more of a govra, but am i healed yet? no!, i still have a hangover of YENEM MACHLA, i still find myself making choices based on me being YENEM, it's a horrible machla as it causes one not to reach their potential, and to be miserable people.

So please keep on davening for me מתוך שאר חולי ישראל,

With a heart full of thanx, the @alteh

You seriously scared the living daylights out of me for few seconds. (not nice) Not to belittle your predicament, but welcome to the club! I think most of us suffer from this malady to a certain extent, in one form or another. צרת רבים חצי נחמה.

amevakesh wrote on 09 Jun 2025 04:00:

I concur with amevakesh, your words filled me with ice cold dread until I read the end, you can't do that dude.

Unacceptable.  

At this point, your grievous affliction gets ZERO SYMPATHY from me. Sorry. Maybe later, when I recover....

Maybe this should've been in The Grouchery.

Maybe not.

Who cares?

גם אני מצטרף להנ"ל,

.....I totally though the worst

Im gonna make sure you get thrown out of the mir for this mischief,               we thought you grew up since you filled the water carrier s buckets with water while he was sleeping and r yisroel meir had to stay up late to empty them.
       Oy ppl don't change
    More musar my friend 

youknowwho wrote on 09 Jun 2025 13:19:

Where's the Mashgiach when you need 'em?

Hi chevra! it's a little hard for me to respond to everyone's critique, but i'm really sorry if it was mischief mismanaged for some, and i beg your mechila, but please let's also focus on the content.....

Hatzlocha from the mir!!!!!

altehmirrer wrote on 10 Jun 2025 02:05:

You're absolutely right! The content of your post certainly deserves a response. Although I came here to gripe about your choice of words, I have very little to offer in terms of your actual pain (as Moldy Voldy generally does not give a rats rear end about anybody/yenem) and so I must defer to others. 

Sorry for only coming here to gripe, perhaps that was not very kind. 

- a Moldier than usual Voldy

Are we chopped liver?
Do you not care what we think of you?
Even though you've shared your struggles?

We think your constantly someone to look up to, thoughtful and a true Ben torah. I dont say this lightly, we think the world of you. Look at how we accepted you even after your mischief...

So even if you are nervous about what Yenem thinks, at least let that Yenem be us!

cleanmendy wrote on 10 Jun 2025 15:07:

@cm thank you so so so much!!!!!!!!!!! just what i needed to hear! perfectly said!