I'll tell my friends a little about who I am, in short (more will hopefully follow).

I am a Jew (!) b”H. חרדי. חסידיש (Chasidish).

I grew up, and still live in the Hasidic world, (which I look at today with a different & more positive view than before… I got to GYE/HDA), and I thank G-d that I was born to fruma erlicha parents, and an erlicha ultra Chasidish community, studied in erlicha מוסדות, from top/bottom (all ages & stages)

Somewhere around the age of 12-13, Bar Mitzvah year, a wheel started to turn up and down constantly, when the toy was covered on one's own body, even though I had a feeling that I It's not right, and this is the worst of the worst, but I couldn't help myself,

And constantly (sometimes a few days in a row, sometimes with a break of long weeks or months), happened to play and do things that I didn't really want, but felt some good(!) feeling about it

So until after the wedding, which I married B”H Fine, with a real wife of courage in all respects, thank G-d. but a few months later, everything came back and even more. after a good couple of years, starting to have access To the internet, i started to recognize new things, new ideas, things that I have תאוה to, but I didn’t know its happing in real life, and of course sew/watched ....yeah....things that I was very curious(!) to see, (but didn't really want to… you know that? You or maybe familiar with that inside מלחמות…)

And so things started to get worse......

Until… until…. I discovered the holy site, first/mainly the Jewish site היט דיין אויגן 'Keep Your Eyes' and a little later also here  the English site (even its not my language מאמע לשון, (FYI: to this post I used Google Translate…)

And here I stand today with almost 200 days (one day at a time), may God continue to help

I have a long way came till here, and I have a more, biggger, stronger, heavier way to follow up רק בעזרת השם

אייער פריינד

Thanks to hatzadik & Rabby HHM for being the שליח to stay wear I m today, (and say all thanks for @rebakiva to pusing me to this post)

Wow I'm so exciting for you, I cant waiting to getting to 200 days, for me its so far away I'm only 65 days but you so luky that you already is soo far, fursure you wased with r' hhm so you cood getting all the way so far.

I dont thinking that you having a bigger and heavier way to going, I thinking that you already all the way clean, you just needing to kolding strong onto hhm's hant and you goona being very strong עמו"ש 

Thank you for the chizik I'm looking up to you really, ייש"כ

Welcome!

I recognize your username as we started at around the same time. Keep posting and connecting with others!

Muttel

Muttel wrote on 18 Nov 2024 09:49:

i am trying remind myself about it.....
but anyways thakns a lot for ur reply

Hi welcome aboard 

Mazel tov R' onelookless on your first thread.

You truly are a legend, I'm so humbled and lucky to have gotten to know you, your strength and commitment to keeping clean are really an inspiration to me and all our fellow brothers here.

I've really gained a lot from you and our friendship.

Thanks for finally opening your own thread, where everyone will be able to shteig from your wisdom and courage, and where you'll become a part of the family.

Keep it up and keep us posted.
With love Akiva