I can definitely relate, although I don't think I can help too much.
Last winter zman I was so burnt that I dropped out of Yeshiva for a month.
I have ADHD and I don't know what to do with myself in Yeshiva.
I can't focus during shiur, and I can't sit still for more than two minutes. Second seder is torture. I can't learn without a chavrusah, and where I am, the oilam does night seder by themselves. I haven't been learning by night seder for more than two years, until a few months ago when my father managed to get me a chavrusah.
So I can definitely relate to feeling so burnt and lost and not knowing what to do.
I don't really have any eitzos. I just keep going, one day at a time, knowing that this is what Hashem wants from me, and Hashem isn't expecting perfection from me - he wants whatever little that I can do. And yeshuas Hashem keheref ayin.

tried them all, gone through every 'top doctor'. it helps, but only to a certain extent.

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Thanks for trying to be helpful, but unless you tell me about something that just came out yesterday, you're not going to be mechadesh anything to me. I know the sugyah very well. Gone through all the options. There isn't that much that I can change to make things better. The only thing would make things better that I'm not doing now would be staying off of sugar, which is not easy.
Not looking to hijack stopsurvivingstartliving's thread, if you want to reply to me you can respond on my thread.

I understand GYE forum is for kedusha related problems. But since I have no where else to do this I will do it here.
Right now I am burned out of learning and I don't know what to do going into a new zman and moving forward in life.
I grew up in a regular yeshivishe home where the basic is to learn until I get married and then learn a nice amount in kollel. That is what is expected of me. Therefore dropping everything and going to work is not that simple.I am a pretty smart guy and therefore school went well. Got good marks generally. Then came mesivta where I was motivated to learn and I did a pretty good job. Moving onto beis medrash I had some mental struggles which were very painful but bh I took care of it. But then based off the more intense learning as we get older I had a very hard time. I was always self doubting myself if I know what I am doing or not which made the learning a whole lot harder. On top of that some more mental stuff kicked in and made it very hard for me.
I went to Israel hoping for a new start and without much of a plan why things should be different, nothing changed.
So here I am in Israel burnt crisp and not knowing what to do.
So you ask why don't I feel good that in the p and m area I am doing quite well? It's because moving on in life I am pretty lost.
I personally don't see any light at the end of the tunnel moving forward. But as I learned in the past there are big and smart people on this forum that can help.
Waiting to hear from you!

Sincerely,
Someone who wants to stopsurviving and startliving!

I am currently listening to the amudim event from a few hours ago. It features R' YY Jacobson and Dr. Shloime Zimmerman on discussing intimacy with children. I can relate to every single word. It is bringing up so much pain. So much of my past few years being told by people who never heard my story. I almost want to not listen to it its so true.

I recommend you guys listen to it.

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 23 Sep 2024 21:23:

Here's the link: unitetoheal.com/discussing-intimacy-with-our-teens

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 24 Sep 2024 12:26:

Aaaannnndd- blocked by filter!

Thank you for sharing SSSL,

I couldn't get it to work yet, but BezH I'll figure it out and look forward to listening.

While I was poking around on the Amudim page, I happened upon a different interview with Rabbi YY. A few minutes at the end, starting from ~43:20 is particularly k'dai if you have a moment.

unitetoheal.com/growing-up-to-be-a-leader-in-am-yisrael