Hi,
I don't really like typing since I am not the best in conveying myself over text but I am going to push myself and finally introduce myself. What motivated me is seeing username Eerrie post regarding himself so I thought I also introduce myself. 
I am your typical normal frum person, daven 3 times a day, has multiple sederim. I have struggled for about +12 years, on and off, the longest stretch was about 120 days. I have never given up and I have continued fighting since I know that this is a problem that has affected me in multiple aspects of my life such as anxiety/depression/lack of motivation/interpersonal relationships/memory. I usually fall about once a week and this is on a day that I am off from work and therefore not busy or productive. Usually week 2 or 3 are the hardest for me but after I get passed those week what makes me fall is just curiosity or stress. So thats me. 

Welcome!

Great to see you join the fight towards a life of purity!! There is such great support here that you can benefit from to strengthen yourself in this battle.

May I suggest you reach out to Hashem Help Me (michelgelner@gmail.com)? He's helped many, me included.

Here's hoping for your success and spiritual flight!

Muttel

Shalom Brother,
Way to push yourself and write an introduction. Would love to know you better and connect.
If typing is hard, would you prefer speaking over the phone? The oilam here has many special members that would be happy to talk.
Hatzlacha

The truth is that Eerie is a great person to be inspired from. He is someone that has helped many people on The Journey towards themselves.
Stick around . Read and Write . There is much to gain from being here

A very warm welcome! 

You're a million percent right! It's hard to convey feelings through text, and way to go for pushing yourself to open up.

If you feel up to it, maybe reach out to some folks. Your inspiration, eerie, is a great start. HHM, is chief around town and Muttel is nisht avek tzu machen. 

If not, make yourself at home. You're not alone in this fight, we're all brothers locked in arms. Like you wrote, you haven't given up. DON'T. This is our mission on this planet. We'll make it to freedom TOGETHER! 

ALL THE BEST, 

- Yiftach'l 

Hey, nice to meet you, my friend! Please feel free to reach out via the email in my signature. I'd love to make your acquaintance.

My friend, this place, as CO puts it, means hope. Here we begin the process of really getting past all the behavior we really know should be left behind. My friend, stick around, read some threads, get to know the oilam. And soon you'll beH be on your way

Hey welcome!

Definitely can relate to what you shared. There are a lot of great resources on the site that can help you in the fight. Check out some of the links in my signature below including: The highly recommended book The Battle of the Generation which can help you reframe the entire struggle; the excellent program Flight 2 Freedom which will teach you some really awesome tools, and work through some exercises; and The Hall of Fame for a taste of what the forums can offer.

Thank you guys.