Day 393
I'd like to post here something that others may get chizzuk from. I've B"H been clean for a while and have BS"D been zoche to speak to and help many of our chaverim here. I've had some changes in my personal life the last couple of months that have precipitated some internal struggle/squeeze/anxiety causing me to have uninvited thoughts that I don't always manage to ignore right away. B'H overall I'm steady. I have the best friends to reach out to every time I feel an urge (and resist the famous last words "I got this"). I have mentors I can speak my anxieties through with, and hash out my normal, healthy male urges with to try to get them to dissipate. When they don't dissipate, I can accept having them, and accept being triggered for days at a time, so long as I don't them and succumb. BH for GYE and BH for the magical friends therein.

Friends, where would I be without you?? 

Not every moment do I feel inspired to march on - but march on we do regardless.

May we all be zoche to see the tremendous light in tasting the sweet taste of victory - and all be zoche to increase Kedusha in the world through (self-imposed) struggle.


With much brotherly love,
Muttel

When the going gets tough....

Hold on tight.

Times like these where we need a double- and triple- thank you button... Mods?

authenticeved wrote on 05 Jun 2025 05:25:

Someone called ?

Another proof?
chosemyshem wrote on 28 Mar 2025 18:12: