hechochma wrote on 31 Dec 2023 04:38:

what works for me,
PLAY BALL 
if you you suck @ ball
go for jog,
hit the gym
MS is exercise night!

hechochma wrote on 31 Dec 2023 04:38:

Do you maintain the same conditions for porn

Markz wrote on 31 Dec 2023 15:17:

Poor comparison. 
For the one the YH tries to get you to avoid 
For the other He tries to get you in. 
Being facetious will not help someone sit through a seder that isnt going geshmak

redfaced wrote on 31 Dec 2023 17:08:

I will add that I don't have a problem sitting generally - still in Kollel here - I just need s on MS that will help me feel less like jumping out o' my skin not more.

@Cande - I'm decent at ball and was thinking about getting involved in a game but I'm not sure if the missus will be okay with me leaving on MS - I'm out late Monday - Thursday. I was going for the treadmill idea but alas - didn't work out this week (haha)...

Day 14:
The past two weeks feel like a different lifetime - not because it dragged along, but because I am a non-porn-watcher, baby!!! (To be read in the voice of Mrs. Frozone)

Today had it's challenges, watched the kids the whole afternoon and went to a shiva. But bh everything went well ultimately and I even managed to get on the treadmill for the first time!!!

hechochma wrote on 01 Jan 2024 04:14:

Good luck getting off that treadmill. I know a guy whos still on it.

hechochma wrote on 01 Jan 2024 04:14:


Thank you for giving me new newfound meaning to the word "Hufflepuff" last night...  

This is some serious MEGA MONSTER TRUCKING!!

redfaced wrote on 01 Jan 2024 13:35:

Lol - not one of my many problems in life - who knew what you could be grateful for!!! I have another 76 pounds to go...

hechochma wrote on 01 Jan 2024 18:21:

This thread ought to be renamed “I can run but I can’t breathe”.

Sorry Hechochma, I couldn’t resist! 

You are mechayiv me (among many other things) to get my behind off the couch and trucking on the treadmill!

hechochma wrote on 01 Jan 2024 04:14:

You are awesome!

Studies have shown that non-porn watchers have a slightly higher success rate at the treadmill.
Please be aware, however, that not-going-on-the-treadmill has been found in many studies to be a habit-forming, even addictive, activity. Along with not-jogging, not-weightlifting, and taking the elevator.

Keep soaring!

Day 16:
Doin' aight - my son has been sick, and I've been having a hard time dealing with some individuals in the mornings. It's a good thing that I'm a non-porn-watcher because b'h I am leaning into the sharp feelings in life and I had a decently productive second seder.

Thanks to connected for helping me along my journey to find myself - this has been a lost-at-sea week and I think if I would honestly accept connected's advice I'd stop trying so darn hard to control my life.

Alas, I'm still missing either the serenity or the wisdom to accept some things. Either way - I'm makin' moves and hopefully I am moving forward slowly in the journey to be myself and achieving greater clarity into who that is.
B'h one thing I do know about myself - I'm a clean-bean-non-porn-watchin'-machine

Peace (that's a prayer)

Day 17:
As ChaimO wrote elsewhere - nothin' quite like 4+ hours of hespedim to change things up. Was a tough day but bh I canceled night seder and took a little nap and now I'm as spry as a robin.

My brain is still in a swirl over what to make of my life - trying to follow my thoughts and feelings while discounting calculations of my own pride, my own success, my own etc. It's a good deal easier said than done, so I keep questioning and rethinking and perhaps I'm not doing the right thing this way that way or the other.

To be clear the question at the mo is if I should begin college online in the near future. Alas, the answer is beyond me but I'm darn close to a yes. College is a long-term commitment that would change my life. Hence the vacillations.  Only death is certain, and only death brings certainty.

Either way - shemiras einayim struggles were extra special today due to the added stress of the levaya+not eating properly+standing for 4 hours and more women around. Worse has happened - I ain't afraid of Satan's little pea-shooter - he has to bring out the big guns if he wants to draw fire. Ain't invitin' him to draw fire neither. Bh.

Love y'all brothers - Happy news for the Jews b'karov...

But that levaya was a constant reminder of how we must set up our gedarim.... that was Rav Matisyahu's tzava'ah. He changed the world. Gave shtoltz to those with standards.

Hashem Help Me wrote on 04 Jan 2024 04:41:

And b'h I'm proud of my dumb-phone, I'm proud of my filter with almost no access to entertainment, and I'm proud of my recently initiated WebChaver too - how was my last check-in? ;-)

It's lesser known but R' Matisyahu also raised a generation of Talmidim and taught them how to fight the battle against the soneh hagadol from the inside, once they protect themselves from without.

hechochma wrote on 04 Jan 2024 14:26:

Are you almost ready to take it to the next level and delete the word in bold?
Aint no time like the present