צע״ק

Amazing! Yes, for the general public that is definitely the case. However, the Avos bepashtus lived bmidas hadin, see sforno vayshlach vehaya hashem li laylokim, Leshem (chelek beis, drush 5 anaf 4, siman 3), R elchonon (Kovetz Hoarahs, dugmoas lagada). Also, by R Akiva "shtok kach ulsa bemachshava lifunai", the meforshim explain its refering to midas hadin, that was the machshava of Hashem to create the world with din.

Vehkam wrote on 11 Dec 2023 19:48:

ברוך שכוונתי 

I had a moment of tremendous Chizzuk this Shabbos.
It's an unconventional thought, and I doubt any great Rav or Chizuk-speaker  will present it on a Viayimaen video. But it works for me. 

I was learning the Parsha of Yosef Hatzadik and came across the Gemora that states that he would have given birth to 12 Shevatim had he not stumbled somewhat within the challenge with Eishes Potifar
. תלמוד בבלי מסכת סוטה דף לו/ב  
תניא היה ראוי יוסף לצאת ממנו י"ב שבטים כדרך שיצאו מיעקב אביו שנאמר אלה תולדות יעקב יוסף אלא שיצא שכבת זרעו מבין ציפורני ידיו

Now, obviously, the Gemora needs to be properly understood (and there are many Peshatim), and its axiomatic to state that any shortcoming Chazal are ascribing to Yosef Hatzadik is only a shortcoming on his impossibly great level. Nevertheless, Chazal are clearly saying that there was a higher, greater level that Yosef could have achieved in that moment of Nisayon, that he did not reach.  On some (incredibly high) level, Yosef messed up somewhat, and because of this he lost TEN Shevatim. He never regained them.    
This made me feel great. 

{SPOILER ALERT: I suspect this post may bring down upon me the ire of Captain and Bright. About Vehkam's reaction, I'm not sure.}

Allow me to explain. You see, Yosef is THE Tzadik. The entire Klal Yisroel rides on his Zchus - He is the Tzaddik Yesod Oilam. Everything stands on him.  And yet, here we are learning that the unbelievable Madreiga that we all rely on - is only"Madreiga B" - It is all notwithstanding the fact that he LOST "Madreiga A" when he did not withstand the Nisayon entirely (for what was expected on his exalted level). It would seem (unless I am mistaken) that he never regained "Madreiga A". But "Madreiga B" is still enough for all of Klal Yisroel to stand on and draw wellsprings of Kedusha from until the end of time. And he is still Yosef Hatzadik, nevertheless, Merkava of Middas Yesod. "Madreiga B" was enough to acheive this impossibly great level, regardless of the fact that he lost "Madreiga A". 

This is a huge source of Chizzuk to me.
I have messed up in the past. That is why I am here. I am proud to report that I am BH doing great, and accomplishing great things.
Yet I sometimes feel bad about what I may have lost forever due to bad choices in the past.
Now, (besides remembering that Teshuva is real and effective) I can find great comfort in this thought:
I can still set my sights for the lofty stars - for a "Madreiga B" that will reverberate until the end of time.

שגיאות מי יבין

[p.s. Bright, I Takeh don't know why Yosef's presumed Teshuva Me'Ahava didn't get him back the 10 lost Shevatim. It bothers me too.]

פחד יצחק איגרות וכתבים קכח

I believe that is one of the places r Hutner ztl explains שבע יפול צדיק וקם

Why shouldnt he?