This is really inspiring. If I would have been so prepared and thought-out for these kinds of Nisyonos when I was a bochur, I would be in a much better place now. Keep it up! I'm looking forward to the update on Monday. 

My non--stop-inspiring friend, WOW! The fortitude, the planning it out, my friend, it's amazing to read. Personally, when I fly I take a new book and read the whole flight. Unfortunately learning is not something that will hold my concentration on the plane or in the airport. If you want ideas of beautiful, captivating, REAL stories (I don't like novels-why would I want to read about somebody else's imagination, mine is just as good), feel free to PM me

Hey, my good friend EC,

As of yet, I don't have a way to contact you privately, but I know you will get an email with this post.

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you over your off shabbos, as I'm sure many others are as well.

It's tough at home, it always was for me. Just know that you are strong enough, and even stronger. If the going gets rough, that's ok. Smile, breathe and move on. It can be hard, very hard but you know that it isn't a sacrifice. It's what you truly want.

Looking forward to your update!

Grant always has the right words!
A lot of us are rooting for you here, friend. You are a special growing person.
Don't know if this applies to you, but going home often brings with it a lot of emotional upheaval, and the unrest that comes from being off schedule and in a different settings. Sometimes it's also hard to keep the self-image of the  Choshuve "you" who you are in Yeshiva while your'e away in a home setting. Holding on to the excellent Kabalos that you write here is also as a way to hold on to your Gadlus. And don't forget to keep asking the Rebono Shel Olam for help.
You're an inspiration!    

Man, i am jealous! The chizuk that is given on this site is incredible! When i was a bochur i went through Hell all by myself. Noone to hold my hand or listen to me share my pain, confusion, and turmoil. Noone to tell me i was a kosher yid, or to give me any practical advice or chizuk. May Hashem bench the founders of GYE and all those involved with loads of bracha. What they have created here is simply beyond description. Mr. Eccentric, you are one fortunate fellow.

Hashem Help Me wrote on 02 Jun 2023 11:31:

This is a huge inspiration for me HHM.
If you came all the way to where you are right now without GYE,
How much more can I, and is expected from me.

Day 42 on reading, also, b"h, I made it through Shabbos, thanks everyone for the chizzuk!

Day 43, everything going well, b"h, another date that didn't move forward, but feeling much better.

Day 44, nothing to add, no news is good news.

Day 45 on the reading, 66 since my last slip. I really feel that what I'm doing here is super amazing. The chizzuk has helped me so much, and given me the push to make sure I stay on track and I am still growing. 

Thanks everyone!

EccentricComposer wrote on 08 Jun 2023 20:21:

Eccentric music to my ears!

Hey, I wanted the oilam to know that I would love to reach out and talk to some more people, but I would prefer it if there was a way that I could use a different phone number so mine wouldn't come up. Does anyone know how to do that? I have a tagged LG Classic Flip. I would love to be able to work this out, thank you!

EccentricComposer wrote on 09 Jun 2023 16:23:

Hey fellow eccentric, great to hear you are ready to shmooz on the phone.
I think Google Voice may still work

Running into Shabbos, day 46, hope everyone's doing well.

Good shabbos!!!

I figured out how to add another email to my phone, it took forever.

Please email me at:

eccentriccomposer01@gmail.com

Looking forward to hearing from everyone.