I've never posted before but was guided to an incredible therapist by GYE and although it's a work in progress, it's going GREAT! Thank you GYE! A REALLY COOL THING  happened to me yesterday...Hashem is just AWESOME! I have had months of a clean streak....good filters and keeping busy. Winter break now, I'm off, and the risk begins again! I had that moment of realization that the one unfiltered computer in the house, although off-limits...isn't REALLY off-limits, and it'll just be a few quick checks... (yeah right!?) So, I gave in...but BIG time! Obviously, as usual, I felt terrible and guilty afterwards and telling myself for the millionth time that I will never do that again, so dumb, what were you thinking etc... THEN the crazy thing happened. I decided to use a few minutes of the afternoon to learn. Went to shul, opened up a sugya, needed a Rambam. Was trying to put the sefer back, and it wouldn't push all the way in to the shelf. I shifted around the seforim and a sefer flew off the top of the seforim shelf (high up), smacked me HARD in the head, leaving a serious mark..and it hurts. What sefer Rambam?!?!  "TAHARA"!!! Straight up...wow!

gottafixthis wrote on 29 Dec 2022 16:23:

I love when Hashem speaks so directly to me!