hey everyone!
I'm new here 

I don't know if I did the right thing by opening a new topic, so far I don't have anything to write here.

Hi, Shmily! So am I. It's so nice to meet a good guy, and if your here then you are a good guy! Even before we here your story/struggles/etc. know that we all care for you and want to hear from you. Post whatever you feel like sharing, and remember that your friends are rooting for you

Welcome to the family! שלם עלכם!
post what you struggle with and ull get chizuk from the Olim… like if you’re a bucher you’ll have a bucher with the similar situation saying I was there and got out or working to get out and if your a working guy or kollel yungerman etc. you get the picture… and even if not you’ll  just feel good getting it off your heart… looking forward to read it!

I'm 21 
working half day learning half day 
struggling for a few years now 
always had problems when I was young but B'h got help from a staff 
but during covid, I had access to the internet for the first time on my own so I messed up all the hard work from the years before, and now I'm deep into bad stuff that I don't even feel....
( do I need to refresh the page to see if there is a reply or it's auto-sync? 

You wrote it beautiful very clear… I know coved was hard for me too I fell than the worst I ever did … but bh I’m climbing out of the mess slowly but surely… are you doing the flight to freedom program???

no what is it?

I'm so far from recovery, I don't even believe that one day I will be even a drop better 

I’m not sure you tell me… did it just come on or you had to refresh?
btw I love your user name I’m sure you are beautiful bruchnies and begashmies!! ( I don’t spell good but I hope you chap what I saying, if not feel free to email me )
and you might not see response so fast like everyone has different times he’s on gye but keep coming back and you’ll see your responses and btw a thank you under a post miens thst the person read your post and like it…
good luck! Love ya!

beautifull-shmily wrote on 27 Nov 2022 19:09:

What in havens name?!?! Off course you’ll get better and very soon you’ll be posting stuff like wow I’m living such better life now etc. just look around this forum s little you’ll see guys that we’re in the same matziv as you or worst ( married betrayed their wife’s etc) and are as clean and happy as anything now!

I’m not sure you tell me… did it just come on or you had to refresh? 
I refresh every 3 seconds anyway I'm so excited to see the response that I get here 
I am Beautifull bagshmies but not beruchnies 
thank you for taking the time to respond 
love you too  

beautifull-shmily wrote on 27 Nov 2022 19:07:

It’s a 6 week program that if you take seriously and do it bhy it will change your life! You can see it on the main page of your dashboard ( I think) if not message gye how can you start … your on a smart phone or computer?
btw it’s so nice that you learn half day I love buchrem that are not meant to be in yishvah and go out to work but they want to learn still and get a chavrusah for half the day! Love it!! 

thank you geshmak 
I'm still not sure if I want because I tried many times in all kind of ways and it worked but then I fell back and the whole thing was a waste 

beautifull-shmily wrote on 27 Nov 2022 19:16:

Btw you can just quote if you want to write something on what someone else wrote… 
I also get excited to see response on my post! I love attention! Like who doesn’t?!?!
but like I said before give it time not everyone is on here the same time ( many live in Israel etc)and most guys read but don’t respond etc. like you ( I got lucky)got lucky that I’m not feeling well today and I’m home I’m usually in yeshivah this hour and I also have a time limit on my phone how long I could be in gye( I use be on for to long..) but bh I got to see your post cause I like you and the way you post with such אמת! Keep the post coming!

beautifull-shmily wrote on 27 Nov 2022 19:22:

First of all off course you want to change I’ll prove it- you came on to gye! Second if you don’t change then just look around this forum and you’ll see what happens not that you don’t know your self the ugly feelings of being were you are now and the GESHMAKAH feelings of being clean… not saying it ain’t hard work… it’s hell to climb out but it’s well we’ll worth it brother!! And part of the f2f program will give you motivation to change I think that’s week one.