Dear @yud909,

I think we should now change the name of this thread to "At a high point right now...."

Kol Hakavod, Keep on going!!

excellence wrote on 22 Nov 2022 09:43:

Love the idea as BH I definitely feel like I'm at high point right right now and bezras Hashem higher and higher. I'm not going to change the name of the thread (don't even know if you can) as I want it to be a reminder to me how I feel when I fall and hopefully that will keep me on the right track. 

BH still going strong on day 21.
Little nervous about today being there's no real work but so far so good and trying to keep myself occupied. 

Actually to be honest, I'm struggling a bit right now. Haven't actually done anything but I'm in my bed on my laptop, not a great place to be when having some urges and no one will be home for another few hours. I gotta get off my bed and go do something....

B'H I got through the day unscathed. Looking forward to going to Shabbos kodesh with 22 days clean. My short term goal is 30 days and my little longer goal is to get to Chanuka without being nichshol again, How good would that feel.

yud909 wrote on 25 Nov 2022 18:31:

How’s good would that feel??? Bhy it’s gonna feel amazing uplifting exciting and last but not least it’s gonna feel geshmak!!
you'll go in to chanukah like a makaby that won over the USA culture ( way worse than the Greeks) you be able to spend time with family friends with a clean relaxed head ! Bhy!
you’ll tell us than how it felt…

Good morning
just checking in with 26 clean days
loving it

yud909 wrote on 29 Nov 2022 15:40:

You know what’s the גמ׳ of 26,right???

Just coming out of Shabbos, celebrating my 30th clean day. 
Amazing feeling. 

Thinking about booking tickets to E"Y to celebrate 90th day (bezras Hashem) by the Kosel, just a little nervous what happens if I don't make it? Like  want it to be a incentive to get there but sort of have to book these thigs now if I want the cheap tickets.. lol good problems to have I know...

mazel tov on the 30. iyh to 90 and beyond.

i can't really answer on your dilemma, but i would advise that you do whatever you believe is the healthiest for you in your struggle. Try not to be swayed by the savings of a few hundred dollars (i assume that is the whole difference).

best wishes and can't wait to hear about your trip!

vehkam

Keep in mind that if you book then fall, you may be so upset, that you will spiral downward. 

Mazel Tov on 30. Kein yirbu!

Hi yud909! I just want to tell you that you are a huge part of my success, of my inspiration. You changed my view of myself. Very grateful! Like very very very. And so happy to see that you are on the way up! Keep trucking!

Hi All
Just checking in with 38 clean days.
Baruch HaShem
Thank You HaShem

Haven't been posting much as I've been busy, which is a good thing. There is one thing which I'm curious to hear everyone's opinion on.

I don't believe I've mentioned this earlier but I do  watch movies, netflix etc. Very often at night for just 30 minutes to an hour to unwind but sometimes like on a long Motzei Shabbos ill watch for several hours. I try to stick to relatively clean stuff but that's obviously not so realistic. I was mekabel yesterday to not watch anything until after Chanukah. Which bezras Hashem I'll be able to stick to without too many issues. My dilemma is going forward after that. On one hand movies are often a trigger, even if not right away but they slowly plant the seed in my little head so they should seemingly be avoided at all costs. On the other hand I find that boredom is a much larger trigger for me and when I'm able to occupy myself with a relatively clean (relative to porn that it is, I'm well aware that a good ben Torah shouldn't watch 92% of what I watch) outlet, it's helpful.  As I said, I'm going to try it for the next 2 weeks and then take it from there. I don't think I'm ready to quit them completely yet but maybe just watch less and see how it goes. 
Any words of wisdom?

yud909 wrote on 11 Dec 2022 18:09:

First of all congratulations on your 38 clean days!! It's really a big chizuk for all of us when we see how our friends stay strong.
You're asking about stopping for 2 weeks vs giving up completely. Even 2 weeks is very very big and special! 
We like to take things one day at a time. Don't think now about what will be after the 2 weeks... 
If you'll focus on doing NOW the right thing, Hashem will help you later on as well.