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Re: Still work to do but there is always hope! 24 Feb 2023 00:57 #392603

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Does anyone have any idea how hard it is to even just shop online for underwear when you have serious SSA? I’ve started walking the streets without my glasses on as well as removing them in Shul except when I have my nose directly in my Siddur. I have to stop my eyes from seeing things that drive my lust! 

Re: Still work to do but there is always hope! 19 Apr 2023 13:36 #394681

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Hey TeshuvaGuy, we miss you!
In the place where ba’alei teshuva stand, even pure tzaddikim who never sinned cannot stand. (Rabbi Avohu, Brachos 34b)

Great free resources:
My favorite book for breaking free: The Battle of the Generation 
https://guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation. Change your attitude and change your life!

Rabbi Shafier's incredible lectures on breaking free: The Fight. Download here: 
https://theshmuz.com/series/the-fight/

If you're only ready to try something small, check out an easier way to do self-talk here:
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/378128-Captain—Shtarkemotionals-Secret90Day-Challenge

Re: Still work to do but there is always hope! 19 Apr 2023 15:35 #394685

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Hi Teshuvaguy, 
How are you doing? Its been a while. I understand your pain. I know what it means to have that constant desire and lust burning a hole in your brain. 
Instead of pushing it aways and hiding by not looking either in shul or on the street, (Unlike looking at women, it is not forbidden to see or look at men), the problem s that you turn every scene into a drive for lust. 
Your mind is craving that pleasure and it will not let you hide from it or run away! I think you realize now that your mind has incredible power to sexualize everything! So you cant really run away or wish it away. 
The only thing that works sometimes for me is to confront it and to be fully honest. Say the following to yourself (out loud is the best).
" I understand the pleasure i will get when fantasizing about men, i know the pleasures of acting out, i remember all too well how that feels and a part of me desperately wants to feel that again, so im not angry at my mind or myself for bringing these things into my mind because there is still a part of me that wants that. Im fully aware of it and im making place for this feeling in my mind and my body.
BUT, thats only a very small part of me that wants to go that route, Me, Myself and I, being that we are the mature and grown up ones that are in charge, DO NOT want that! Why? for lots of reasons, (the more you can state, the better).
1. Im married and i dont want to hurt my wife. 
2. I dont want to hurt my holy soul
3. I dont want to disappoint Hashem
4. I know how i will feel afterwards way too much pain
5. I want to be Zoche to eternally greatness in the worlds to come
6. I want to be in charge of my life and not get carried away from everything else just because a small part of my brain wants!
And on and on..... keep on thinking of more things. 

What this does is it takes away from the crazy euphoria and it focuses you back into reality, you are aware of what this part of you wants but you are making a conscious decision based on your more advanced part to do whats right. 

This practice is part of diffusion, you should look it up and practice it until you see a difference. Its a very powerful tool and it will help you. 

Fight smart not hard!
Good Luck buddy!

Re: Still work to do but there is always hope! 26 Apr 2023 11:27 #394996

You are amazing!

you have so many opportunities to come close to Hashem. 

you can be the closest to Him, doing His will every waking moment. 

you go to Shul and in the middle of the volcano you seek G-d

wow!
Hi, my name is ILH and I’m grateful for having to focus just on today. 
Easy does it... I don't need to be perfect. 
If you figured out my identity, don't be shy, come say hi! 
It takes tons of courage to fight the good fight, but we don't have to do it all alone. 
My Story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/385922-My-Story-Being-Honest-For-Once

Re: Still work to do but there is always hope! 27 Apr 2023 14:09 #395056

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Hey T.Guy. Reach out, would love to hear from you
no matter if you are going through something we can try to be there for you
hatzlacha rabah
To my dear friend reading this:
You are an incredible yid for just being on this site, I am breath taken after each post or new person that comes on and shares a bit about himself, keep it up. You guys are mamash matzlichim in your own ways of growth and Hashem is proud of each one of you! (that includes me too) lol.

KEEP UP YOUR TREMENDOUS UPLIFTING IN THE AVODAH OF EMES!!

Thanks for reading! Stay shtark, I am also being challenged, just build your confidence, never quit no matter what, you are your strongest enemy and yet you are your strongest savior so you choose, I am not saying it's easy but am saying it's possible just takes effort and work!!
-from Emes-A-Yid

Re: Still work to do but there is always hope! 28 Apr 2023 11:39 #395093

it always bothered me that the people that walk around there completely undressed like they have no care in the world. The rules of modesty still apply. When you are getting dressed, take your underwear off under a towel. Shower facing the wall. Wear towel on the way to the water, and remove it as you are  walking into the water, then put it back on as you step out. It seems very strange that people are going to purify them selves, but conduct them selves in a way that is…. Not idealistic…
Hi, my name is ILH and I’m grateful for having to focus just on today. 
Easy does it... I don't need to be perfect. 
If you figured out my identity, don't be shy, come say hi! 
It takes tons of courage to fight the good fight, but we don't have to do it all alone. 
My Story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/385922-My-Story-Being-Honest-For-Once

Re: Still work to do but there is always hope! 03 Sep 2023 08:06 #400786

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ILH247 the gemara and halacha discuss it. Great question. One point may be not to make a thing about it. Am I wrong to assume that whoever goes to the mikva has any potential ssa under control? Otherwise even with a towel, there could be some serious triggers ...
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