I unlocked a portion of a memory from around 12 years old. until now all i knew was that something sexual happened in the basement of the home of two sisters I used to hang out with. not my sisters, just the two girls are sisters. all i remembered was walking toward a doorway in the basement with no idea what happened there or what the context was before or after. the memory i unlocked was that both sisters were in the room - not just one, and that they were coercing me to come in to the room and do something or let something be done to me. I am not sure what, but until yesterday i thought it was me convincing them to go down into the basement room with nobody home, not the other way around. 

i feel like i was looking at the ocean, and suddenly realized that my perception of what is sea and what is sky got flipped. 

Feeling disoriented.