I've proved to myself that I can make it through a full Niddah cycle without any major slips or falls.

Is it not as hard as I thought it would be? Or am I stronger than I thought I was?

Shalom bayit is 10/10.

Thanks, folks.

evergreen wrote on 20 Jan 2021 20:50:

As already noted, all us married men were there. And we all wish this place had been around. You're not hijacking it, your reinforcing the point! 

Day 75. Definitely my longest streak (and still going strong).

This hasn't been all that difficult or nerve-racking. I think just knowing I'm able to have my desires fulfilled makes me not need it as much. And this has changed how I view physical desires.

For example, the end of fast (last hour or so) can sometimes feel so difficult that all I can think about is food. But once it's over I think to myself "eh, I feel alright; I could probably keep going". The desire (partially) vanishes. Just knowing I can't have something makes me want it more.

So whenever I'm in a tough situation of physical desire, I just remind myself that if I had it right in front of me I would automatically desire it less, and I make myself feel that way now. And it's true. When I'm tired and feel I need to take a nap in the middle of a work day, I call my bluff and say "fine, go sleep". Suddenly, I'm less tired.

Same too with this struggle; it's mostly in my head.

Another shoutout to Hashem for giving me my eshet chayil.

Ok. Honesty time.

I had a fall last month. It was only after a second fall the next day before I really got back on my feet.

99% of the time I don't miss this stuff and actually have serious distaste for it. But there's the 1% of the time where I feel weirdly nostalgic about it. At least I know who the real me is.

I don't think I've logged on in over a year (the site sure has changed!), but I had to share how proud I am to be contributing to GYE's fundraising campaign.

Baruch Hashem for GYE!