Alright folks here’s what we got SO FAR:

20 Days clean from touching “ever” at all for hanaa.
Around 49 days clean from bad YouTube vids (though watched movie trailers/gifs abit before last time was nichshal (20 days ago), which was bad. But nothing like bad on YouTube...)

Its Erev Yom Kippur, and I’m Excited!
I love Hakadosh Baruch Hu and can’t wait to be cleansed to inhance our relationship.
Baruch HaShem.
I approach HaShem with nothing but a Lev Nishbar which yearns for Tahara. 
May HaShem see my deepest desire and return me to Him.

Thank you all so very much.
I never dreamed it was possible to come this far, and bezras Hashem- The Best is Yet to Come!!!
Gmar Chasima Tova!!

With much appreciation,

YeshivaGuy

Ah!
Just right now, erev Yom Kippur, HaShem sends a pretty girl to text me.. No thanks!
This is תשפ״א fellas! 
No more of that trash!
I texted her “wrong number” and blocked it.
Wooohoo!
This hurts. But this is the life I have chosen.

Thank You!

Well done keep up the great work, you are an inspiration!

Whew! Tons of taiva right now, heart pounding and all...
But nope! I’m winnin this one.
Aaaaaahhhh!!! Sooo hard.
But no thanks!
A life of Dveikus is waaaayyy more Geshmak.

Hatzlocha to all, and sorry for all these posts
it’s just that it’s mchayiv me to fight when I publicize it here.
thanks

You know how rabbeim like to say , “we are as great or greater than the  tzaddikim of previous generations because of the challenges we are faced with  that they never had “, people are often cynical and skeptical of that, but reading this makes it hard to doubt... hatzlacha to you , & your incredible avodah should be a zchus for all of us.

YeshivaGuy wrote on 27 Sep 2020 03:10:

If you dare stop posting, I'm fairly sure there will be actual GYE riots. Your posts are utterly fantastic.

Gemar chasima tova. 


p.s. תשפ"א can be rearanged to make the word אשפת - trash. So that's the idea, use this year to raise out from the trash!

YeshivaGuy wrote on 25 Sep 2020 17:39:

Hey Yeshiva Guy you are truly inspiring!

I don't have time to wax on and on (which I tend to do sometimes) but just the gist.

Sometimes life as an orthodox jew can feel intense, with a lot of "demands" and can become overwhelming. But that is just because of the way we try to mix the best way our yetzer hara wants to live and the way Hashem, who definitely knows the truth, instructs us.

It's cliche and we've all heard it. The reason why when we learn Torah it isn't as delicious as the gedolim or seforim say is because we are tasting it with damaged tastebuds. We brutally assault our spiritual tastebuds with materialistic indulgences and then we expect them to still be sensitive to the loftiest levels of spirituality.

The same applies here. We watch movies- exposing ourselves to the antithesis of truth, fantasize and drool over secular society and their modus operandi of self pleasing and indulgence (like animals), and compare it to what we must do, but that's all wrong.

Do we watch cows in a pasture and dream to be one? Do we envy the simplicity of their lives? Are we jealous of the fish in our fishtanks who's greatest concern and duty is to keep checking of the sand at the bottom suddenly became edible? No, we understand the difference. So let's think a little deeper and understand this difference.

We think about how a goy sails through life effortlessly (or so it seems), while we flail and struggle. Oh, how we wish to have it easy too! But it's all wrong. When we sign up for a gym membership, do we complain how now we must sweat and struggle? How we must run every singel day and pick up the same weights, even increasing resistance as time goes on? No, we realized that that is the whole point of the gym. The more we sweat and strain the more reward we reap. And yet on the beach down the block there are loads of people lying on their towels lazily and sunbathing. No struggles for them, no straining, no gasping for air after an intense workout. But we know that they won't have a physique like yours, health like yours, retain their youth and physical stamina as long. Jealous? No. Maybe even a little egotistical. Proud of how you have discipline and purpose. Successes and goals for the future.

Life as a yid may feel hard sometimes, but we know why. We are here at this gym for that purpose, for a daily spiritual resistance workout. Let us appreciate the toil and sweat. Let us serve hashem to the best of our ability. We must constantly remember why we have this gym membership, be מקדש שם שמים daily, and we will eventually reap our tremendous rewards and be נהנה מזיו השכינה, which is the greatest pleasure and enjoyment possible.

.גמר חתימה טובה ושנה טובה ומתוקה


                                  Grant

P.S. I guess I did wax...

Grant400 wrote on 27 Sep 2020 14:28:

Gevaldiggg!

P.S. my truck could use a waxing...

YeshivaGuy wrote on 25 Sep 2020 17:39:

YeshivaGuy wrote on 27 Sep 2020 20:35:

The Department of Health just called me and told me I tested Positive.
So BARUCH HASHEM my parents made me quarantine in the RV!
AND BARUCH HASHEM I DIDNT GET ANGRY!!
RABBOSAI!!  THE RIBBONO SHEL OLAM CONTROLS THE WORLD!!!

Yom Kippur in the RV this year. Me and  HASHEM YISBORACH.

I LOVE YOU ALL.
GMAR CHASIMA TOVA!!!!!

This is why it’s so important to have Emuna and Bitachon in HaShem.
May we be zoche!

So this is why I couldn’t go to shachris or Seder last week.
I beat myself up for it, but really I had coronavirus!!
And HaShem kept me in bed so that I wouldn’t infect my chavrusas and the rest of Yeshiva!!
incredible

An hour before Yom Kippur everything changes.
Gd is running this world.
My father isn’t feeling well though, and he’s righ risk, may he have a refua Shelaima!!!!!

Was thinking of you all through yom kippur. As an example of the special people klal Yisroel have. 

Did not not know of your test or your fathers illness, Refuah Sheleima, may you and your family have a very healthy and happy year. 

Firstly, a gigantic refuah shelaima to your father.

Almost like a mofes story! For sure something to tell the kids one day. Hashem really looked after you, and others. You must be very special to merit that.

Have a great new year, filled with beracha, health, happiness and success in ruchni and gashmi for you and your whole family, and gans clal yisroel.

p.s. Congrats on 3 weeks!!!