unfortunately I don't know where he is, but I have been trying to reach him with direct messages and emails and I think it's time for others to start doing the same!

Where are you Grant? We really miss you!
Sending hugs to you, wherever you are...

Has anyone heard from Grant? The site is just not the same without him...

He has not logged in since late August. Doesn't respond to PMs or emails either...

Maybe he is back with a new username?

This is so refreshing to read! 

He's probably in Ukraine fighting the rebels. 

General Grant!
Can we here how you’re doing? 
We weren’t just missing the stories, we’ve missed YOU!!

Good for you!

Hey Grant,

A little birdy  told me you were spotted hovering in the forum right now!

Nice to see you back 

GO MAGA GO!!!!

Fell to new lows (for me) before this streak.

For the past 24 hours I launched a vicious, bloody crusade against my poor filter. (Un)fortunately it held up. I won't say it kept the most chassidish standards under the battering it received, but it held up against what I'd call a fall. I may have to  send it to therapy.

B"H I have an amazing accountability partner who reigned me in just as I was rolling in with my battering rams.

I won't say I wasn't expecting to be overcome like this on day 96. I was. Not an hour went by since day one without me craving and lusting - sometimes to the point of physical pain.

Not sure what more to do besides to keep fighting.

Not sure if it will get easier.

Not sure if it has too.

Not sure if and when I'll eventually crack and get access.

Though I am sure I'll never quit the fight.

My friend, I gotta share a thought. So many times I wonder if my honesty on the forum is something that causes people to disrespect me. I know, I shouldn't care what people think, but at this point in my life I still do (until we open a guard your ego or something along those lines). I don't know you, but I read your posts and I have such respect for you. And my respect just went through the roof. My friend, hats off to you. Beautiful, and wonderfully, brutally, honest. Thank you.
And I'm sure you'll always fight! Keep trucking!

Struggling like crazy the past few days. My mind is going ballistic, reminding me of what a plethora of pleasure there is to be so easily had. Pathetic excuses keep popping up. I'm at a point where I really feel possessed. 

My mind is racing, heart is pounding and my stomach gets cold and tight. For real. I don't know how common this is, but I get real physical symptoms, I've discussed this here before.

Over Yom tov it was easier to resist, obviously my hands were tied regarding most things, but now I'm really suffering and rallying everything I've got to beat this demon. I'm just focusing on putting one foot in front of the other.

Hope to see you on the other side.

If you need to talk to someone you can always DM me. Despite the fact that we don’t really know each other 

Grant400 wrote on 28 May 2023 20:22:

Ouch!! I feel ya, really do. It sucks out every bit of power left within us..

However, pls keep on fighting, you did it in the past and will do it now too.
now isn't the time for any debating.. u just need to reach out to someone live or/and make use of ur toolbox.