Lol I actually got my username from Old Spice Captain bodywash. Couldnt figure something out and it sounded cool. (Btw I did not like the smell too much and I am not recommending it lol.)

I hear Palmolive has a wicked bodywash. And Ajax has an anti dandruff shampoo.

Grant400 wrote on 10 Aug 2020 19:53:

I actually use Palmolive body wash, highly recommended.

Oh come on, I can't be the only one in the astonish antibacterial hand soap band!
I use head and shoulders for my hair. Tell me I'm not alone in that!

Baruch Hashem all's well by me. Hope it is by you lot to. Hatzlocha all,

All is well Baruch Hashem. Been lusting, but going on this site has helped. Hatzlocha all.

Still lusting. I don't want to fall, but I do want to slip a bit. Better try and stop it here before I hit a slippery slope. Hatzlocha all.

Im Tevakshena Kakasef wrote on 18 Aug 2020 11:11:

You really gotta rephrase that to "I don't want to fall and neither do I want to slip even a bit because if I start slipping then I know that I have no chance save for a miracle and I know that I cannot rely on miracles."

Sorry, I didn't mean I actually want to slip. I meant I had no taiva to fall at all. I only had taiva to dabble my toes, slip a little. But, like you said, we all know where that ends so I'm gonna have to be strong.

Didn't have a great day. Definitely slipped. Some very brief encounters with unintentional nudity as well. I have to put this in check before its too late.

Hatzlocha

O.K, time to post on my own thread again.

Recently I've been falling. Thank G-d over the last day or so I've pulled myself out of that hole and back on my feet. But I need to plan ahead.

I'm reentering my yeshiva home schedule. Fancy term I made up myself, basically means I'm going to be learning and overall much more busy for the remainder of Elull zman (I hope.) So I won't be going on GYE as much, but also less time for p&m.

I'll bli neder set a time in the week that I go on GYE, or if I otherwise feel weak or like slipping, or just want a chizuk.

I could do with some advice. At the minute, I basically don't have a filter. I have covenent eyes both accountability and filter on my laptop. But the accountability doesn't seem to pick up on many of the dodgy sites I've been on, and the filter is super easy to bypass. (I'd discuss how, and maybe you could give me suggestions how to make it less easy to get past, but I don't want to inform people how to bypass filters in a public setting.) So what should I do? Its pretty hard for me to tell my dad 'Hey, you know the filter you got me? I can get round it. I know because I did. Oh and the accountability software? That doesn't pick up on most of the shmutz I've been on.' So does anyone have any advice for me?

I've also debated just telling my dad about my struggle. Maybe not the full extent, but that I have seen, intentionally, dodgy stuff on the interner. Whats the general idea when it comes to telling parents? Or does it vary person to person to much to give a general rule?

Lastly an unrelated point. How does one know if he is truly addicted or not? I always have a nagging feeling like I could overcome the lust if I truly tried. But I've not managed in years! So when do I know if I'm an addict, and should start trying some new things?

Thanks for the help. Hatzlocha all.

Would depend on your relationship with your Dad. All I can say is, I wish I would have told my Dad. I hope my kids will feel comfortable to speak to me about any struggles they are experiencing.

Hatzlocha Rabba

Agree with LionKing.  If you can, speak with your father.  Assuming you and him have a solid relationship, he'll respect you for telling him and the conversation will bring you two closer. 

Thanks for the advice guys. You understand its kind of a big deal for me. I'll let you know what I decide.

Baruch Hashem have had a good week (or at least 5 days.) Back in yeshiva schedule more, so less yetzer. He'll come, but I imagine it will be a few weeks before he does. Never know though, so I'll be on guard.

Have a great Shabbos.

Baruch Hashem keeping clean at the moment. Not much taiva thank G-d. Have a great shabbos all.

Bit more taiva today. Probably due to a wet dream last night. But pleased I'm still clean, baruch Hashem.

Hatzlocha.

Really struggling today. Like I poshut don't have time to act out - too busy a schedule, but boy the taiva is coming on strong. Hope everyone is well, and fairing better.