what do i do when were half way through elul and i fell almost every day of elul?

its cool to see so many people helped by this site. but im still stuck. i'm not ready to talk to anyone. i'm ready to be in touch by email. anyone who thinks they can help me please send me an email chassidishebuchur@gmail.com

its cool to see so many people helped by this site. but im still stuck. i'm not ready to talk to anyone. i'm ready to be in touch by email. anyone who thinks they can help me please send me an email chassidishebuchur@gmail.com

I suggest you make a new group with these brothers in arms with the 1 pre-condition of no talking. As it's Elul, many are in any case practicing Taanis Deeboor so you'll get a large chèvre. Please keep me posted how you guys all do!!

Hello to you all from kan tzivah
I relate to everything you all said.
This is a dangerous disease, but with a cure!
Proof to that is that I stopped and I'm clean for more then 28 months.
Before I stopped, I have been watching and needing to masturbate two the times a day.
I davened beavodah and still do. I was not a faker and I still I'm not. When I was misbonen and davened it was for real. I had chinuch from real mashpiim... But it didn't stop my sickness. 
Chassidus doesn't help someone with bipolar not with allergies.... So to with this.
I have a lot more to say, but gotta start my day
Feel free to email me or private message me.
Chassidus is raich, yiddishkeit is raich especially with being clean
Keep it up!

Could be, and could be not
There may be different opinions, and it's ok for you to disagree.

Back to my post from this morning:
I was on GYE for 7 years until I became clean.
Yes, seven years!!

I started to be interested in women at age 11. Started masturbating at age 14 and couldn't stop. I loved to daven and feel my emotions, but that did not help.I never knew that it is not ordinary to not be able to control when to masturbate and when not.I would have this problem for another long while, and wishing maybe my rabbi will broach the subject. Never happened.I fantasized daily. Until age 24. Sometimes just 15 minutes while others for hours.I was a popular bachur. Teachers liked me, and friends. But I always felt inadequate. Thought people only compliment to make me feel good. They don't really mean it.I felt like a hypocrite. This chassidishe bachur on the outside, full of yiras shomayim etc.. but with an uncontrollable sex drive in the inside.Who I'm I?Got an email account at age 20, and one month later I was hooked to porn.It killed me.I got to GYE pretty quick. They spoke about 12 steps, but I had all my ideas about it. Is it kosher? Even if it is, does it follow the same values as chassidus? (I'm Lubavitch btw).I found this other program. It helped me a little, but then realized it is really strong Christian. So stopped.Was in touch with several people. Each with different methods. But nothing helped in long term.At age 23 I still did not have fetishes (did not get aroused when seeing women on the street and more).Someone told me, "if you don't take care of your problem, it will progress". And it did.Needed to watch longer to get aroused, needed to change the style video, going from more aggressive videos, then to less etc. Always needed to change to get aroused. But always needed to continue, and could never stop.At age 27 I was married a few years, two children and a new job. But needed to masturbate two to three times a day! I stopped enjoying it. It became a necessity.

And then I hit bottom. 
Since that day I'm clean.I'm now sober since may 10 2016, Beis Iyar 5776.

Correct this is me, and everyone is different. At the same time, I have many friends who are clean and are made of completely different characteristics then me. They are cold, thinkers, non emotional, but Sober!!
I know the pain of living in the crazy porn world/masturbation. My heart is broken of just thinking how much you all are suffering. remembering how I felt. Lost, lonely, worthless and no hope.

That's ok.
I'm not trying to convince people.
Some people may relate to my story.
If one does, then they're are simple methods to deal with it.
It works for many people. It mainly works for people who tried all other ways but couldn't stop (completely). 
If someone else who is clean for more then 100 days and says they have a way that works for them, it's worth hearing.

Mzl: maybe you can share with me the method that's keeping you sober? You shound like you are smart, capable and older--so probably clean. I would love to hear how you do it.

That's ok.
I'm not trying to convince people.
Some people may relate to my story.
If one does, then they're are simple methods to deal with it.
It works for many people. It mainly works for people who tried all other ways but couldn't stop (completely). 
If someone else who is clean for more then 100 days and says they have a way that works for them, it's worth hearing.

Mzl: maybe you can share with me the method that's keeping you sober? You shound like you are smart, capable and older--so probably clean. I would love to hear how you do it.

lenegditamid100 wrote on 07 Sep 2018 02:23:

Hey, what method did you use to recover?