go for it . I've been in you're position although now i'm about ten years older. How i wish i had access/knew about GYE at that age.Take advantage for all it is worth-at this age and try very hard to make a true commitment with all the help you get over here, and it will help you're future life in ways you cannot imagine.

HATZLOCHA

עי הקדמה לספר חפץ חיים שהטעם שעדיין לא זכינו למשיח הוא משום עון לשון הרע רכילות שבא מכח שנאת חנם. 
don't knw who told you HOLOCAUST was because of this , but if it was then it's definitely alot better than the alternative ( otherwise G-D wouldn't have done it) so definitely no reason to get depressed.
Let's just guard our mouths and eyes andbring Moshiach now

עי הקדמה לספר חפץ חיים שהטעם שעדיין לא זכינו למשיח הוא משום עון לשון הרע רכילות שבא מכח שנאת חנם. 
don't knw who told you HOLOCAUST was because of this , but if it was then it's definitely alot better than the alternative ( otherwise G-D wouldn't have done it) so definitely no reason to get depressed.
Let's just guard our mouths and eyes and bring Moshiach now

Gut voch to all!

Today is #28 second highest since joining gye, since last fall I've reached such hights! My amount of wasting time has decreased by 3-4 hours each day and my learning has increased to 3-4 hours each day, so not sure if it's such a fall to some extent... 

My falls were due to me wasting time..

Shnitzel and kugel wrote on 23 Dec 2018 02:58:

Way to go Shnitz! Keep it up.

What was your wasting time due to?

Due to me reading different articles online instead of me using that time wisely.

Sounds interesting.
Were the articles what caused you to waste time, or were they just the way that you used your wasted time?

Both

Correct me if im  wrong but it sounds like the classic trap - " I'm such a loser I might as well be unproductive and read articles.. and than-  see all I do is waste time reading articles .. back and forth and then if Im a waste than I might as well act out...

I don't feel like a loser when I read those articles as they give me knowledge in specific topics I like looking into.

Wasting time itself isn't gonna cause me to me act out, it's the "bored times" that eventually leads to acting out. 

Shnitzel and kugel wrote on 23 Dec 2018 02:58:





Ok, so it sounds like you want to be michalek now between "wasting time" and "bored times". That's your right, its your thread afterall :-) . But then I'm going to want to rephrase my question 
What was your bored times due to?

I retract on my words... Wasting time and bored times are the same.. though not sure what your trying to get to..

Day #31

Rewiring my brain back as quoted in the "30 day email" one receives when hitting 30

I joined the 90 day challenge 200 days ago, and bh only messed up twice

These past 33 days were the easiest bh, I believe it was due to me going to therapy and taking care of the underlying issues.

Good shabbas to all!