Another fall.

This one from extreme tiredness.
That lead to frustration at not being able to achieve things.

Also a trigger was repressed anger at someone who treated me badly.
Of course, we must not be angry.
But I didn't have the opportunity to tell them how they treated me.

Of course, it is meant for me to have that opportunity another time.
Which will be for the best.
Gam Zu Le Tova.

But I let it get to me, a lack of Emunah.

Hey Colin, 
Wishing you much luck on getting back up again. It’s important to prevent a fall from becoming a string of falls. On another note, if you don’t mind me saying, being angry is a lot better than turning your anger inwards and hurting yourself in the process. Kudos to you for finding your trigger. I hope this point will help you the next time around. 
Best of luck!!

K.O.C.

I fell again.

After a long time clean I am falling frequently again, every few months.

I was put into a social situation that I was not comfortable in, and it threw me off kilter.
I took out my frustration in a bad way.

I should have gone for a walk or read, but my mind was confused and my spirit disturbed.

Hashem sends us challenges but I do not overcome them very often.
Somehow I have to be stronger.