Thank you ChaimYakov!! Thank you for tremendous chizuk! All you guys are great and supportive. Hashem must be shepping so much Nachas!

As I've started again and going through the beginning stages again I have caught my mind saying, "So what?? Big Deal! Porn is good. C'mon, you know how awesome it is. It's so hot!" My unhealthy mind starts playing back the images and, the scary thing is that, I start to believe it. I start triggering. Baruch Hashem, He has removed the temptation from me so far. From my last 65 days I remember how hard the beginning was and how "awesome" staying clean was. How "hot" it is to tell the active addict living inside of me to take a back seat because Hashem, Melech HaMelachim, is in charge!.. Stay focus, anontyva (almost wrote my real name)!

Have a wonderful Shabbos my Holy Brothers!

Gut Shabbos!
Keep giving it up to Hashem, you're doing great.
Mottel

Pleased my words encouraged you. 
What steps have you taken already? 
If you don't have someone to call on the East Coast USA already, pm me and i will gladly give you my number.
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD.
chaimyakov

Its been a long time since I posted.. But just wanted to check in.. I fell back in to the depths of my acting-out. I have been clean since Rosh Chodesh Elul.. I am not doing anything in regard to recovery just staying clean.