thanks alex,  i'm in touch with GYE to help me with my shvauh buy me master** t is not such an issue its porn and looking in the street. i'm making a shuvah for porn and a more harsh one for matserba** .

good yom tov. see my post in breaking free about keeping our eyes clean for yom tov join me!!

just in case someone still cares, i have been doing great lately, i have in the last 40 days not lustfully gazed at any women at all! yes you heard not one! if i did i looked away right away! no porn for 2.5 months and i'm under a neder which is working great for me! yes its hard and sometimes i want to look, but for most part i am disgusted at looking. my shlom bayis is great since and the love between me and my wife since then is awesome! its rewarding i daven better learn and and all around  a better person. And i have to thank all of you for the great chizzuck i get here.  i hope this continues and the real test is going to be bain hazmanim and i am preparing alot for it.

Awesome!!!!!!

Helpfyi wrote on 04 Aug 2011 20:53:


gevaldiggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trucker of the Month Award!!

free chrome tires
late model CB
free air brakes inspection

see you in Cooperstown

ehhh zhugg ehhh vuu dusz kuppesrdown

ehh zhuggg??

tzvai zaitin fin dee zelbe matbaya

Now that's living!

thanks guys for all your support, trust me its not easy and there are times i feel weak but i keep on going and its becoming 2nd nature not to look and that's awesome!

i shall keep on trucking... vrum vrum vrummmmmmmm!!

Help,

Thanks for the inspiring update!  Welcome to the other side!
No need to ever fall again.  It can be done.  I'm 2-1/3 years into my beginner's clean streak.  My neder expired a long, long time ago.  Now I'm just kvar mushba m'sinai.

Life is good Good GOOD!

Alex

B"H!!!

alexeliezer wrote on 05 Aug 2011 19:40:


wow thats amazing, i don't plan to fall again but the YH is a smart guy so i have to be on guard! at what point do you stop the neder?  i'm still to nervous to stop. As far as the street, its not easy but i'm still doing it, its becoming more and more 2nd nature, i haven't been faced with crazy tests so far, and for that i thank hashem, i'm ready for a big test even though i don't want it to come. But sometimes i feel the YH has a sence of humor like when i'm being all good at he put some stupid non tznious women right in from of you in the store, i think its funny i have eeven cought myself laughing at how he tried but toooooooooo fregggggggn bad mr YH i aint looooking at this poor women!

Sounds like you're doing great.

Glad to hear it.

Eye.nonymous wrote on 07 Aug 2011 18:58:


thanks for all the support, i gotta get through the bain hazmanim clean then i can through a party.

welcome on board my friend.