Today,Sunday,First Day of Shabbos,25th of October,7th of Cheshvan,First Day of the Rest of Our Lives
Perek 49 of Tehillim "For the Conductor, a psalm by the sons of Korach."
We all remember Korach.
Sad story.
Got lost in pride.
Got lost in himself.
His sons learnt a valuable lesson from the whole tragedy, though.
"Ki lo bemoso yeekach hakol.Lo yeyred acharav kevodo."
Go to your funeral.
What will people say at your eulogy?
Uri. He really liked porn.
Uri really enjoyed a good burger.
Uri was able to put a good 12 hours on his pillow.
Vinny. He was a good killer.
Tom. He was a great actor.
Farve. He really knew how to throw.
What are the people gonna say?
Who are you?
What have you become?
What happens when you see the video of your life?
Keep in mind that this is
not not not a mussar shmooze.
What's done is done.
What Hashem gave He gave.
The past is the past.
And much of it was definetly basically out of our control.
But what now?
Will our life continue to be one long string of:
Comfort
Time
Irritable
Resist
Comfort
How much will be accomplished in this manner?
Our life has to change.
We have to live with the bigger picture in mind.
G-d created us to enjoy Him.
And He is the world.
We must get out there and experience Him For how long can we live selfishly and within ourselves?
When will start sharing ourselves with the world?
The world is waiting for us.
The world needs us.
Uri has something that the world needs.
As do Rage,Mom,Guard,Momo,and all of us.
This is what we will be remembered for.
Uri.He spent his whole life giving.
He wrote songs to pick people up.
He smiled at strangers.
He cared about people.
Uri will not be remembered for not watching porn.
Our lives are not about not watching porn. Not to diminish the greatness of restraint,
but isn't there so so much more out there?
And in us?
I know what you are thinking.
"Sounds simple,yea? Just live, yea? I've tried that. And I went nuts from all the inner turmoil that I couldn't just live."
Maybe we thought too much about the inner turmoil?
Maybe we didn't just let go and live?
Connect to life.
Connect to people.
Our security will be in our connection to life.
I'm ranting.
Uri.He loved to rant.
Will we find ourselves by dwelling in our pains and insecurities all day?
Or will we find ourselves when we show ourselves?
-uri
Comments and questions appreciated