I have just joined this forum and hope that it will provide me the strength and determination to break through and overcome the issues which have kept my life on hold for many years now.

Apparently I have a lust addiction, rather than the normal battle of freewill. It is almost surreal as I feel 'free' during times when I am temporary clean and separate from the compulsive behaviour, although this frequently causes complacency and a lapse. It therefore feels like a viscous circle with intense darkness.

Despite feeling low and sick within me, I pray to show commitment to using the resources and support that is available on a daily basis. It is important to take one day at a time, with goals and strategy even if it requires patience and pain in facing my personal reality.

After all, I have nothing really to loose. For a long time there has been struggle in advancing and making progress with personal dreams and aspirations in regards to relationships and income.
I wish for my dreams to become part of my reality, to rejuvenate and heal completely.

Please Hashem may it be your will that from now on I will live in accordance to your ratzon (eternal will) by guarding my eyes and being shomer habrit, and experience bracha, hatzlacha and a personal redemption.

Nezach,

Welcome to the family!

Hello Netzach! Welcome home. This is where you belong and this is where you'll get chizuk from people who understand you and love you with all their hearts! By joining us you're stengthening not only yourself but all of us, because the more we are doing this together the stronger we are.

I'm sure that our beloved "Rabeinu Guard" will be here soon to welcome you. He'll post links to the Handbooks. Make sure to take his advice seriously and get busy with those handbooks. Their great!

Also please read "The Torah Approach" over here: rehab-my-site.com/guardureyes/forum/index.php?topic=602.0

Hi Nezach,

I've welcomed you and sent you links to the handbooks already by e-mail. We've been in touch since the beginning of the year, and I am happy to finally see you here on the forum.

Like I suggested to you by e-mail this morning, please join the 12-Step phone group. See this page for the info and the phone numbers. You will gain a LOT.

P.S. Were you perhaps on the line already today? Some guy mentioned the Tikkun Klali and I thought it might be you 

bs"d

May HaShem answer your beautiful prayer!