Dov, that was one truly amazing post.
And, this is coming from someone who is so familiar with your posts that I can usually just finish them off for you...
That was real amkus in self awareness...
Thank you for sharing that!

and Honest, that must be in your zechus! your excellent work on self awareness brought out another nugget from Dov!

   

Maskim. Wow.

an honest mouse wrote on 20 Oct 2010 21:35:


I used to think the same way... until I realized that it is too expensive not to call!



(After going 'over in my minutes' on my cellphone for two consecutive months I bought a new cellphone dedicated to GYE calls. [A prepaid, unlimited one from H2O Wireless; $40/month for unlimited talk & text])

Kedusha wrote on 27 Oct 2010 16:41:


Uh huh!  Exactly!!  ;D



Uh oh!  You weren't referring to me. 

There goes my overdrive-EGO again!! > >

beautiful post dov thanks! i mostly surrender on my lonesome but call my partner a couple times a day to get stuff out. (i need more guys to call - anyone wanna move to london, or get an english no. or fly me over to new york? ) today, i made sure to follow the rebbe (thats you dov) and i called my partner to speak out my escapism.

i had an escapy day, i spent too long on GYE and emails instead of working. I was escaping from
1) unfullfilling, boring work.
2) having an uncomfortable mitsva to do tonight.

at least i know im escaping, thats the first step i 'spose (not as in the 12 steps). I had to use the 1st thing on my list to stop the escaping going further. Thanks for that Kedusha and kutan and guard!

I like that new concept. Escapy . This idea will help me alot.

i had another escapy morning. I find the work im doing right now very tedious and overwhelming (for a guy like me who overwhelmes easily). I slipped a couple of times by clicking on a picture that suddenly came up and then spending a few minutes there. Nothing too hardcore, but not for a ben torah or recovering lusty...

anyhoo, the point is, on my lunch break i decided that im just escaping from work, so i determined to do 1 hours pure work, without escaping, no GYE, no mostlymusic, nothing else and it worked gevaldig, I was able to do an hour and twenty mins and it is much more satisfying and dont feel the need to escape so strongly!

Awesome!

walking home from work i came behind a frum woman who was dressed in way which really triggers me, i will admit that while walking fast to overtake her, i 'drank in' the sight and lusted away. It lasted about 20 seconds,  but while the opportunity was still there to chap more looks i followed rabbeinu dov's advice. I called my partner to admit my powerlessness and how lust makes my life unmanageable,(i made sure she didnt hear me)  i had to unload it really, not just to myself. bH it really helped me move past it.

when i got home, i was able to send my wife for a rest and really enjoy playing with my kids - real pleasure, not fake pleasure. If someone had told me that i would be able to enjoy real life so soon after lusting without acting out on it 1st, i would never have believed them! In the past, once ive opened up the can of shmutz, i couldnt move past it till i acted out 1st. bH i think this is the 1st major time i really moved past it, thanks to Hashem, GYE and my partner. I realise this is only for today, it doesnt mean anything for the future, i wasnt koineh any madreigoh, it was just beautiful to be able to experience and i want more!

then i had an a&w, later this evening, i stam called my partner and just then, at the exxact same time that he answered, a frum woman dressed almost the same way walked by and i was already on the phone with my partner so i could ignore her! amazing!

Alei v'hatzlach! ...maybe we should rather say "reid v'hatzlach"....? (nah, too negative. We'll stick with "alei", but remember that it is only the sh'folim who Hashem is magbiah!)

WOW !

mahhveluss!

KOT

OR KOL

(UR IN LONDIN??)

Im Hashem lo yishmor ihr shav shakeid shomer.

Hashem is Guarding the City of London.


The City of London is standing in the merit of An Honest Mouse!

SO HE IS FROM LONDON??

GOLDERS HILL OR STAMFOR GREEN??

AHM!! I WANT TO SEE YOU IN THE PUB

KEEP ON LORRIENG!!

B

(BARKEEP)