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Re: From now until MYK 04 Nov 2024 03:22 #424312

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richtig wrote on 04 Nov 2024 03:04:

ki sorisa wrote on 04 Nov 2024 03:03:
….fell…

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You are correct not sure why I refer to it as a fall. I actually stood at the edge of the cliff and thought about it long and hard how I am going to regret it and how much better by life was without it and as those thoughts raced back and forth I just jumped like a retard knowing good and well that I was lying to myself and that I would suffer.
Last Edit: 04 Nov 2024 03:26 by ki sorisa.

Re: From now until MYK 10 Nov 2024 05:43 #424732

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Not been great since my walk off the cliff…also going through a big nisayon in a different area of life which leaves me feeling like hashem is punishing me for my acting out. Although I intellectually know it’s not true but thats how I feel and it feels horrible. 
Want to just numb myself but know that I’ll only feel worse after. Lose lose situation. Sorrry for being so bleak. Like reading all the positivity here on this site now is just giving me a headache. Wishing I had the strength to rejoin and start again …maybe…

Re: From now until MYK 10 Nov 2024 05:56 #424734

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Rooting for you brother here's a tear  I feel {at least to the best of my ability} your pain

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From now until whenever all that matters is now 10 Nov 2024 17:11 #424766

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ki sorisa wrote on 10 Nov 2024 05:43:
Not been great since my walk off the cliff…also going through a big nisayon in a different area of life which leaves me feeling like hashem is punishing me for my acting out. Although I intellectually know it’s not true but thats how I feel and it feels horrible. 
Want to just numb myself but know that I’ll only feel worse after. Lose lose situation. Sorrry for being so bleak. Like reading all the positivity here on this site now is just giving me a headache. Wishing I had the strength to rejoin and start again …maybe…

The worst part of positivity is when it manages to make you feel better despite you hating it and wishing it would go away.

But I'll leave the chizuk to others (besides for noting that you need to update the thread title since you blew way past motzei yom kippur.)

I agree with you. It is a lose lose situation. Oy li m'yitzrei oy li m'yotzrei. Masturbate and feel like garbage or don't masturbate and feel pressure and pain.

And that's fine. You're allowed to feel pain, you're allowed to feel like Hashem is punishing you and you're allowed to resent that. Feel whatever you want. It's normal, and it's all fine.

But that doesn't mean you have to give in.
Last Edit: 10 Nov 2024 17:34 by chosemyshem.

Re: From now until MYK 10 Nov 2024 18:20 #424771

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ki sorisa wrote on 10 Nov 2024 05:43:
 Like reading all the positivity here on this site now is just giving me a headache. 

Feel you. In fact, I always feel like it gives me a headache. 

Yet, I try to stick it out. Hold my nose. Shove it down my throat, desperately hoping that it will eventually rub off on me.

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​REVERSE BRAINWASHING IS THE NAME OF THE GAME
​REVERSE BRAINWASHING IS THE NAME OF THE GAME
​REVERSE BRAINWASHING IS THE NAME OF THE GAME
​REVERSE BRAINWASHING IS THE NAME OF THE GAME
​REVERSE BRAINWASHING IS THE NAME OF THE GAME
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Re: From now until MYK 27 Nov 2024 13:33 #425913

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Shalom Brother,

Would love to hear from you. How are you doing?
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